life is beautiful

A love is beautiful

“All I really wanted in my life is to be love Zoey”. I said to her and she looked at me and chuckled with nounce of humour and said- want and desire “to be loved” huh. That’s very lonely way to live life”.

“I know zoey desire of to be loved is an illusion but once just once I want to feel it, I want to live in this illusion. I want to devour it in any Human connection or form either it’s in friendship or relationship. All my life i was treated as option, as replacement or as a backup for once i want even just a single human to love me. I sign take a breath and continue—

Zoey! My whole life i loved people and sometimes unconditionally and no doubt at one point they made me believe that they loved me back but it was just believe a shattered believe and like it’s stamped in my fate they proved me wrong because they’re always there to take not to give and I’m repeating just once I want this illusion even just for a few moments.

She looked at me with a gloomy eyes and held my hands and covered it with hers and said- you know some people are just like flowers people always there to plucked them for their own desires, to make their life beautiful but at what cost do you think? At the death of flowers . They used it’s beauty to make their life beautiful and think they love flower but by killing them? But you know someday someone will come, who will actually love you, watered you, going to admire you and will watch you grow . You just have to be patient and wait.

 She said and smile-

“I know Zoey this hope that’s what give courage and dragged me here that’s what stopping me from being pessimist .

That’s why i name you Zoey “my hope”.

She chuckled and smile, “True lol.”

But you know some people are born cactus alone, unloved on their own just to bear harshness not to be loved. I’m just being realistic Zoey. She stared at me for couples of seconds and said, “Isn’t cactus your favourite one?” yesterday i saw you water them. And then she laughed. I chuckled and called her name zoey and smile.