They said that if we die we will just live in our imagination...
But mine was a total darkness...
Here i am walking in the dark not knowing where i will go, i just walk, walk, walk....
~Flashback to the time when i was still alive~
"Im Akei Santiago" i said and go back to my desk
My classmate started whispering about me, but im used to that
My mother is in abroad and my father have another woman
Since my father left i am used living by myself, my mother is going home 1 month a year
I dont have any siblings
Well my life is pretty dark, when i say dark total pitch black you cant see anything
You see my introduction is short, its because i dont have any dream, expectations, imaginations or even a hobby im just stuck in reality
A reality that is horrible and hitting me hard
Sometimes i think what will happend to me if i die, they say you will go to heaven or hell
Someone say you will be reancarnated, but in my head if i die there is nothing just nothing
I just keep doing my routine everyday, waking up, eating, going to school, sleep, that is my routine
If you look in my head there is nothing, i also dont know what my life is for
I dont even have friends, my cousins dont also care
Before i was a happy girl i even dreamed that i will be a great surgeon all over the world
I even imagined that when i grow up i will have a happy life and great family
But it all started when i was 13, when my parent started fighting
Everyday they fight and fight like im not there watching them
My old self started to fade away, my dreams, my imaginations, all of them
I am just like a dead body no soul...
I am here sitting in my desk looking at the teacher blankly
I hear nothing, she is talking and talking nothing is going inside my head
She looked at me and she is saying anything but i cant hear anything
"Akei!" Thats when it hit me again
"What is it again ms." I asked
"Do you have any problem you just kept looking at me earlier" my teacher asked
I looked at the board, she is teaching math
"Ms.Mateo can you repeat that problem again i cant understand it" i said in response
She teach that again and all the noises started to fade again...
Thats why when someone is calling me from afar i cant hear them
Why does reality hurts so much...
I cant even live in my imaginations cause i dont have one
Its my birthday tomorrow, my mother dont have time to come home because she have work to do
The class ends and its 10:30 pm, since i dont have anything to do i asked someone to teach me
I just walked, walked, walked when i look around i dont know where my feet drag me
I started to asked other people for direction but since i walked far its almost 11:50 pm
Then i see the street where i live, i started to cross the road while looking at my cellphone and didn't see a car coming
I cant hear the car honking, then the car hit me
My body hurts like hell, its the first time i can feel pain
Im happy, i looked at my phone and see the clock 12:00 am...
Well i guess happy birthday to me...
Then i passed out..
When i wake up there is just a total blackness
~Present~
I guess im dead now
Walking into the darkness without any direction to go
Not even getting hungry or sleepy, just walking and walking
