Unexpected

Chapter 5.

To be honest, uptil now I had that conviction, that hope that this was all a dream, that I would walk home and find her on her favorite sofa, I would walk to her telling her I had a nightmare but she would tell me that she was always there and she will stick around as long as I would need her to. But now that they were slowly dropping her six feet beneath, I came to realize that it was all true and then at that particular moment when the coffin hit the ground with a loud thud, I felt something break within me.

I stood inert as the last people paid their respects to her but as soon as they left, I let all the pain and sorrow within me to explode.

EXTERNAL POINT OF VIEW

Elisabeth stood strong during the entire ceremony, helping her mother withstand the event eventhough she was battling with her own pain. Seeing her beloved grandmother being swallowed whole by the ground was the worst thing her heart had ever gone through and the screams of her mother she was holding tight made her lose her mind, breaking her slowly but surely. They echoed in her mind as everything else seemed to fade away,

Don't take my mother away from me!

Don't burry her alone in the cold soil!

Mom don't leave me, all I ever had was you!

Jimin and Elisabeth loved you so much, why did you leave us !

Elisabeth couldn't hold back anymore, she fell to the ground cry as thou her heart had been ripped off. No matter how much Jimin -himself in tears- tried to console her, her tears didn't simmer down and so did her pain. She cried in his arms for God knows how long. When she was too dehydrated and too tired to cry anymore, she calmed down giving room for Jimin to take their mother home. Now alone in th e grave yard, she sat infront of her grand mother's tomb as she ranted out her regrets,

"Granny, my lovely grandma, don't tell mom but I probably loved you more than I'll  love her. You've taken a massive place in my heart. During my childhood whenever she wasn't around -which was alot and you know it- you were there, you always where. I would turn to you each time I had a difficulty, you even helped me through situations mother never knew of, I was the lost ship and you were my light house. But now that I am here and that you are up there what should I do? I have always relied on you for crucial decisions because you never did nothing but what's right. Granny I'm so lost and so scared, please come back..."

Elisabeth resumed her weeping with a force and tears she didn't know she had left within her. She cried to hard that her soft sobs turned to hiccups and then to hyperventilation. The lack of water and oxygen in her system slowly shut her mind off. Luckily, she was rescued before her head could head-on  collide with the hard ground.

"Elisabeth, can you hear me? Hey Elisa! Eli!"

The young man tried to keep his cool as he lightly tapped her cold jaw. Elisabeth nodded under his touch calming down and slowly regaining her consciousness. Sighing in relief, he carried her home and made sure she had water to drink before she lose consciousness again which she did. He then gently carried her to the first room he saw, not really being sure if it was actually hers or not. He laid her on the soft bed, took off her shoes and jewelries and dropped them at the bed's foot. He went on the nightstand and scribbled something before leaving the room and the house at once.

Words of consolation are never enough.
But we hold within us, the strength to leave through the pain of grief.
And if you find it hard to heal on your own,
I will be there for you, now and always.

K. N

A/N: I had never imagined that it'll be this hard to write this chapter. Losing a loved one is never easy. I poured my broken heart in this chapter and I hope for anyone going through this painful experience to find peace and consolation in the conviction that their loved ones now rest in peace.

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