The 7 Days Love Game

7. the lake.

day 5

I woke up to the sun shining quite blindingly on my face. today's Friday and also our 3rd date if you count my horrible "dinner".
also, my birthday is in a few days. I'll be turning 18. I wonder if Felix and I will be together by then.

"goood morningg!! :3" I texted.

"good morning. did you have a nice sleep? did you dream of me? ;)" wow he's such a dork. of course I did... but he doesn't need to know.

"yes I did. and yes I dreamt of you. you died at the end lol."

continuing on with my morning routine, I asked him a question.

"hey how about we go to the lake today?"

"the lake? why? o.O"

"the game ends in 2 days silly. I wanted us to do something."

"oh yeah... I forgot this was a game.."

wait.. that means he wasn't acting? did he really like me?

"yeah me too.. so how about it?"

"okay. I'll pick you up at 5."

doing a little dance, I slipped on some water and fell straight on my non-existing butt. but it's all good because ya girl got a date tonight!!

I got ready for the day and headed for felix's house. I was wearing a dress this time, but oh the glory, it was black. but I guess you can say I was last seen in a little black dress. ;) I'm also 5"2 so Kalin or Myles... if you wanna hmu, I can leave Felix.

-at the lake-

"so there's only 2 more days left.. do you know what you feel?" I looked up at his face to see he's looking into the distance probably thinking.

"no.. maybe? I don't know... it's very hard for me you know? I don't know if I want to be in a relationship, I real one at that, ever since...."

"ever since what? wait, is it about the girl in the picture you got upset about? was she your last relationship?"

he stopped and turned to me.

"I think it's time I tell you the story." we both sat down on the board walk, dangling our feet as our toes nearly touch the calm cool water.

"so a few years ago, I was in a relationship with a girl named maya. she was everything I wanted; beautiful, smart, talented, funny," everything I'm not..

"she took my heart. as cheesy as that sounds, she was my everything. until this bastard took her. took her life. she was walking home from work after her night shift and she got jumped and killed," by now, tears were streaming down his face, he couldn't get the last few words out.

"she was suppose to be my future."

I got up and say myself in front of him. I gently wiped his tears and stroked his cheeks, bringing my hand up to his hair and ran my fingers through it.

"I'm sorry.. I might not know how you feel but I truly am sorry. I wish I knew what to do or what to say. I feel so helpless right now."

wiping away the access tears on his face, he chuckled, "hey, this is a date. I shouldn't be talking about my past. so... what are your feelings by now? are you in love with me?" his head turned to me and he gave me a smirk.

"yes." there. I said it. it would've came out either way. he had to know how I feel. I don't care if I get rejected; I love him.
his face was blank as he stared at me in shock.

"c'mon Felix.. say something."

"I... I love you too." we both leaned in and suddenly...

I woke up.

LOL SIKE.

he didn't say that. in fact, he didn't say anything at all. we just sat there in an awkward silence. I knew I shouldn't have said anything. he probably doesn't love me back.

"I... I... I'm sorry..." he got up and left me there in sadness.

stupid stupid stupid!

oh I knew I shouldn't have said anything.

I got up and went after him.

"wait! Felix!" by now, he was already in his car and is driving away. great... I scared off my date and I have no ride. what am I suppose to do now? well... there was only one thing to do. I walked, and walked until my wedges gave me even more blisters.

I finally reached my front door and reluctantly opened it, and ran up to my room.

dear diary,
felix took me to the lake today. I confessed my love to him. he just got up and left leaving me to walk 5 miles home. alone. I don't know what to do.