INEVITABLE

Chapter 33

Ryujin picks the bag from the couch and sees her wife standing by the window, already in her flight attendant uniform.

"Boo, are you ready?" she calls.

Yuri blinks. "Yeah. I was just waiting for you. You said goodbye to grandma?"

"Yeah. I told her we'll visit again on your next off." Ryujin approaches her wife. "What are you looking at?"

"The view."

Ryujin looks out the window. "The view of your compound gate?"

"And the garden, of course."

Ryujin raises an eyebrow, unsure what her wife finds beautiful to stare at. "Do you miss living here? This was your room when you were a kid, right?"

Yuri nods. "I'm just feeling nostalgic, I guess. Do you remember the first time you went here?"

"Hmm. It was on your birthday when you invited the club members, right?"

"Yeah. I was standing here when you guys came."

Ryujin thinks. "Hmm. I don't remember seeing you here before."

"It's because I pulled the blinds down. I was taking the chance to look at you." Yuri points at the gate. "I watched you walk from there, observing your every step."

"J-Just me?"

"Yeah. You. I've been crushing on you since then, remember?

Ryujin chuckles. "Awe. I still don't understand what your pretty young self found in my dorky high school self."

"Hey. Don't belittle yourself like that." Yuri wraps her arms around Ryujin's shoulders. "Just so you know, while I was watching you walk that day on my birthday, there was only one thing on my mind at that time."

"And that is?"

"You. Are. Beautiful." Yuri leans in and gives a light peck on the lips. "After that day, I always look at you from my window whenever you come in and leave."

"Even after we got together?"

Yuri hums. "I just love watching you walk on your own. I don't know why. I love the look on your face whenever you come here. I also love looking at your back whenever you leave. Although sometimes I wish you would wave at me."

"How was I supposed to know you're here if you're hiding behind the blinds?"

"I don't know. But you're supposed to feel I'm staring at you, you know."

Ryujin smiles and pulls her wife into a hug. "Right. Right."

"I was so in love with you at that time." Yuri pulls back, looking at Ryujin. "Fast-forward to today, I am still in love with you."

Ryujin feels the guilt creeping up her chest. Not knowing what else to say at that moment, she resorts to kissing her wife to return the kindness. But Yuri's kisses were eager. Ryujin finds herself wanting to pull back.

Thoughts of Jisu invade her mind, preventing her from getting lost at the moment.

It just doesn't feel the same anymore if it's not with Jisu.

Ryujin's been restless since that night at the party. It's been two days. She's dying to see Jisu again to ask how she is. Hearing from Chaeyoung how much Jisu cried that night left a big hole in Ryujin's chest.

And she just can't focus on anything unless she's sure Jisu's okay.

She lets the kiss go on for a few more seconds and slowly pulls back after she feels she has given enough.