When I woke up, I realized my head was still spinning and my fingers were numb . Another night , another nightmare. I stretched my body and began to look for my phone . I have been shivering and sweating too . Perhaps it's okay. This is not the first time, anyway. I turned off the alarm and went back to sleep. It's a torture to sleep these days. Nights feel like forever and I don't know whether I like it or not . Autumn is lingering around and it's the only good thing happening. Atleast I'm happy about it. Last Autumn was like a Spell . I met Ana and I have been going crazy since then . Ah! What a life I have . College has ended and job hunting has started. I don't know what is actually crazy life in college or life after it. It seems like I have been liberated but I am going to fall of a cliff too. I really don't know how to explain this. I want to do all the odd jobs in the world to experience life and understand it . Also, I want to unfeel some of the things and forgive myself. Perhaps I just want to know how tiny universe inside of us works. Crazy it is !
Well who cares about life that much when you have all the time in the world to experience love and it's side-effects. I am lucky enough in this case my girlfriend is beautiful. Whenever I close my eyes I see her smiling like an angel . Her signature smile. Gosh! she is beautiful. She has always been this wonderful person to me and no matter where life goes she'll always be an important part of me. Humans are weird and their attachments makes them jovial and vulnerable both. It's so easy to attach yourself to something but once it grows on you it becomes like a drug and you don't know what's happening until it ruins you. Love too has it's share of betrayal but I can't deny it that this time I am lucky enough to feel loved and honored by this oh so big world because of my beloved.
