aclove| tommyinnit

brighton

"i'm sorry toby." tommy muttered, leaning into his best friends door frame. "i didn't mean for her to get hurt." he was a mess, yet he couldn't tell if it was because elaria got hurt or because toby was mad or maybe a bit of both.

"it's late tommy." toby said, still attempting to rub the sleep from his eyes. tommy moved to sit on his bed. he moved towards the mess of bedding toby had made and sought out the arms of his best friend

"i know, but i don't wanna ruin anything." tommy began, his voice getting softer. his blue eyes looking down at toby.

"tom, it's okay. i know you didn't mean for it to happen like that." toby moved to comfort his best friend. "but still tommy, just because you didn't mean it to happen doesn't mean it didn't happen. you can't keep doing this, it affect others."

with that tommy began to cry.

"i know, but i just can't help it." he struggled on his words. his eyes a much brighter blue now, his red face stained with his tears. "i'm so scared."

"tom, i'm not going anywhere." toby mumbled, beginning to tear up as well. he had no idea tommy was getting worse again. he felt shitty that he hadn't noticed. maybe he was paying too much attention to elaria?

tom didn't respond, at least with his words, he looked at toby in a way that made toby's heart hurt. he sniffled and leaned into toby's arms.

"i swear. i'll be here, just like i always am." toby leaned his head on top of the crying boy in his arms to hide his tears. "we'll get better. i promise."

"thank you." tommy responded his voice getting weaker through the sobs.
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"toby i'm sorry." tommy sobbed through the discord call, his entire body shaking on the camera.

"tommy you're gonna be okay. just clean up a little. i think they're gonna scar. we'll figure it out together i promise."

tommy nodded and and went to get up. toby's heart dropped. tommy's blonde hair was a mess. his long sleeved shirt was stained with blood at the wrists, his entire body seemed to be shaking, and his blue eyes were bloodshot. his cheeks were filled with tears and his chest rose up & down frantically even though he was standing up.

"woah woah, where are you going?" toby called after him.

"c-cleaning up." tommy mumbled, motioning to the doorway with his shoulder. toby immediately noticed how his voice was scratchier and how talking seemed to hurt him. the small movement with his shoulder even seemed to throw him off balance

"okay," toby paused to collect himself, "it might hurt a little, but it'll be okay i just need you clean. i reckon just water will do fine."

it took a few minutes for tommy to come back. his shirt was still stained, but he had stopped shaking.

"you feel any better?" toby asked

tommy answered with a nod.

"are you tired?"

another nod.

"you have school tomorrow."