SHORT STORIES (ENGLISH VERSION)

Messed up

I probably messed up, again.

I always do, so it's not really a surprise.

But this time it's different . This time I care.

I tried I really did.

I didn't want to annoy them or disappoint them, but that's just what I do.
I got used to being a disappointment.

I know that I always mess things up. But this time I hoped I wouldn't.

I really thought that if I'm aware of how I could mess things up I could manage to not mess it up.

Now I'm sitting here trying to find out where I did go so wrong that I can't even make my proud or at least not think bad of me.

I'm not as strong as them, I know that, but I can at least look like I am, can I?

It's all just pretending, nothings really real.
If you're good at pretending people will belive it even though it's all a lie.
I guess I'm not even good at pretending.

I'm just messed up and I don't know how to help myself.