𝘿𝙞𝙨𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 [𝙏𝙤𝙠𝙮𝙤 𝙍𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙭 𝙈! 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧]

goodbye

•deviation from the plot•
•possible OOC•
•hints of violence•

||Fifteen||

[M/N] stood in front of  Shinichiro's bike shop seemingly at a loss, the gun was still in his grip, he tried to stop the trembling of his hand but he just can't.

He closed his eyes and tried to calm his nerves but the scene earlier where the man was crawling towards him and begging for mercy, played inside his mind making his breath hitched.

He knows that that guy committed a far worse crime than he could think of, the guy from nine-tailed is notorious for being a worse organization, they are also trying to make their influence go beyond international. And the so-called traitor that Ken, the one that [M/N] met earlier, wants to exterminate is not an exception.

But still, even though he knows that he isn't a good person, knowing that he will be the one who would kill that person leaves a bitter taste in his mouth. The cries from his subordinates as they begged him echoed in his ears making him go deaf. His chest moves up and down erratically, it's hard to breathe.

He feels like he would die from suffocation, his throat tightening making him choked on air, he hated this feeling. He can't even break free from this suffocating feeling.

His eyes wandered aimlessly until it landed on the gun, his trembling hand steadied and as if bewitch he pointed the gun on his temple.

What if I fire this gun on my head, will I be free from this suffocating feeling? Will all those burdens be lifted if I died? Will I reclaim my freedom again?

Those are the only thoughts running through his mind, slowly trying to pull the trigger until he finally pulled it, but then he didn't feel his blood rushing out, he remembered that he already used all the bullets to kill those guys.

He was finally brought out from his confusion and started to walk towards the Bike shop.

What is he doing trying to kill himself without even doing anything? Didn't he already resolve himself into doing those things? Why is he being a coward now? Making him look very pathetic.

"[M/N] what do you mean you're leaving Black Dragon?" Waka questioned him as soon as he got inside the bike shop, the five of them looking at him with brows furrowed. Waiting for his answer.

"It means exactly that, I'll leave the Black Dragon. The members are already becoming lawless because no one can put them into their place. The black dragons are getting worse now. Besides, I only joined this gang because of Shinichiro, now that he's gone what's the point?" He said and you can't see an ounce of expression on his face, he's trying his best to make it seem like he doesn't care about black dragons anymore.

He wants them to hate him, for them not to approach him anymore in the future. It will be for the best if they did, he doesn't want the nine-tailed to get a hold of his weakness. The whole black dragon is his weakness and he didn't let them use them to make him surrender completely to them.

"I thought black dragon is important to you! Then why are you abandoning it?! You should be the one who should take the responsibility to make it better again! Just because Shinichiro is gone you will leave? What bullshit." Waka said angrily towards him.