To Our Pinky Promises

Chapter 32

As the bell rang, signalling the end of the day, I started to pack up my things. My eyes unconsciously travelling around the room as my hands worked to collect the things on my table. I saw Alex walk out the room with his friends and only realized what I had done once he was out of sight.

Goddamit, Em. Stop.

I sighed to myself, "Get a grip, Em."

I zipped my bag up and slung the strap over my shoulder before walking out of the class.

As I walked towards my locker to store my things, I caught a sight that I wish I hadn't.

Renee and Alex, pressed up against the lockers, close enough to sneak kisses in. Alex's back was facing the rest of the world as he caged Renee's petite form against the lockers. I could hear her giggles from a few feet away as Alex whispered something in her ear.

I felt something tug at my heart as I forcefully peeled my eyes off the couple.

"Come on, Em. Get your shit together." I disciplined myself. "He's nothing to you. Don't let your feelings run wild."

4 years ago, I thought I was able to cage all my feelings for Alex at a cost; which was the inability to love romantically.

Looking back now, I wasn't sure about that theory anymore.

Maybe it wasn't because I had successfully controlled my feelings; maybe I just loved him, period.

Maybe it wasn't that I couldn't love romantically; maybe it was just the inability to love anyone else but him.

Alas, there was no use in analysing what had happened in the past.

For the sake of my sanity, I choose ignorance.

Be it the success of controlling my feelings or not, whatever I did back then had let me watch Alex be with other girls without awakening the green-eyed monster that was rearing its head against my conscience to rip him away from them.

So whatever I did in the past, I will do it again. For the sake of my sanity.

I walked past the couple, head held high and eyes straight ahead, as if I never even saw them in the first place.

I stepped out into the parking lot and looked for Isaac's car, hoping that he's already there to take me away from this nightmare.

When I couldn't find his white fancy car, I unlocked my phone and checked for any messages from him.

Right when I was about to open our chat to see if I had missed his messages, the screen on my phone changed, showing me an incoming call from the devil himself.

I swiped my finger across the screen and held it to my ear, looking around the lot to see if he's there.

"Hey," I greeted.

"Hey," He greeted back. "I'm sorry, I'm just right around the corner. Are you already outside?"

"Oh. No, that's alright. Don't worry, my class had just ended anyways. I'll meet you at the gate then?" I offered, already starting to walk towards the school's gate.

"No, no, it's too hot. Just wait by the building's entrance door, I'll be there in a few minutes." Isaac stopped me.

"Um, alright then." I hesitantly agreed, looking back at the school building, and almost immediately, the image of Renee and Alex against the lockers came to mind.

I knew that Isaac meant well by asking me to stay by the building to keep myself cool, but I wanted nothing more but to go somewhere I wouldn't need to worry about catching sight of the couple.