-Ashley Roberts POV-
I woke up to the sound of an alarm ringing. The alarm wasn't mine I usually hear every morning.
I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. No no no..this isn't my room. I was laying totally naked in Jax's bed. I looked around again and pulled the blankets higher up to cover my body.
Jax was still sleeping next to me and I stood up with the blankets wrapped around my body. I looked at the floor and saw my clothes laying next to the bed. I put on my clothes and left Jax's bedroom without making any sounds at all. I didn't wake him up.
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I would still have time to go to school but when I came home I bursted out into tears. What the hell have I done?!
Jax. I let him take my virginity last night...Jax Martinéz. I know it's my fault. I shouldn't have let him do this. My feelings are mixed. I really enjoyed last night, but I will now end up like one of Jax's other girls. He won't ever think of me again now when he has won the bet. I was just a bet.
Dad came out from the kitchen. "Where the hell have you bee-" He didn't finish his sentence when he saw that I was crying. "What happened?" He asked, I shook my head and wiped my tears away with my right hand.
"Nothing" I mumbled and walked up to my room. I sat down on the floor and I felt how tears started to tear down my cheeks again. "This is my fault. Why am I even crying?" I asked myself and then my bedroom door slammed open.
"Dad, please leave?" I mumbled. "Dad?" Paul asked and closed the door. Paul sat down next to me and I looked up at him. "Shit, tell me. What happened? Why are you crying" Paul asked.
Paul is the most annoying person in the whole world but he cares about me. And when he's not acting like a jerk he's the best brother I ever could have.
"Tell my Ashley" He said and I tried to wipe my tears away again. "I-I did s-some-thing dum-bb" I cried out and Paul gave me a comforting smile. "It can't be that bad. What did you do? Drink again?" He asked. "No"
"What happened then?" He asked. "What did you do?"
I looked at Paul. "I don't want to talk about it with you" I mumbled and Paul sighed.
"Ashley you don't have anyone else to talk to, you don't want to talk to dad and I know that you definitely don't want to talk to mom" He said. I sighted.
"Jax" I said and tried to come up with a way to tell him what happened last night. "What did he do?" Paul's facial expression turned serious. "We were studying for Biology and an-d" Paul looked at me. "What did he do?" Paul asked again and I took a deep breath.
"I let him take my virginity..." I said and Paul stared at me. "So you let him fuck you?" He asked and I nodded. "Ashley this isn't good....We are talking about my friend Jax Martinéz, Why the fuck did you let him do that? " He asked and he stood up. I didn't answer, I didn't want do tell him that I'm attracted to Jax. "You're not going to school today. Stay home. Drink water or something" Paul said. What? I didn't imagine that Paul would react this bad that Jax took my virginity they're friends, right?
"What?" I looked up at him. "Stay at home" Paul left my room and walked down the stairs with heavy and angry footsteps. Anyway, staying home today feels like a good idea.
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-Jax Martinéz POV-
I looked around in my apartment. Yes Ashley left. Ashley's school books were still lying on the table in my living room. I groaned. I'll skip school today. I sat down on my couch and opened my phone. Ten missed calls from Ian and three messengers.
Ian: Jax! Answer!
Ian: I sent Ana to your apartment!
Ian: Ana will be there in ten minutes.
"Shit" I mumbled to myself. Ana is an old 'One night stand' but she shows up way too often to understand that I don't want her anymore. And today, for some fucking reason Ian sent her to my apartment.
I could hear three fast hard knocks on the door and I stood up. I didn't even have the chance to open the door before she slammed it open. She looked at me. Her brown long hair where lying over her shoulders and she were wearing a way to short skirt.
"Leave" I said. But Ana unbuttoned the first two buttons on her shirt. "It won't happen again...I promise" She said and walked over to me. "Don't funking lie! Leave" I hissed and she smiled. "Why are you making such a big deal of it? I love you is something lots of people say while having sex...Why did you get so mad when I said it" She smiled and unbuttoned two more buttons.
"Keep your damn clothes on" I said and walked over to her grabbing her arms. Both of us flinched when my door slammed open and Paul walked in. I could see the rage in his face when he saw me.
Ana pulled herself out of my grip and slowly backed out from my apartment when she felt the tension between me and Paul. I looked at him. "What are you doing here?" I hissed. "What am I doing here?!" Paul yelled and pushed me up against the wall.
"You fucked her! You fucked my damn sister!" He yelled and I groaned. "She begged for it. Don't act like I raped her, because I didn't!" I hissed and pushed Paul away from me.
"She moved up two classes in school to help you higher your grades! And you act like a jerk and fuck her even tho you know she deserves someone better than you!" Paul yelled and I closed my eyes and sighted.
"She's not going to show up in school today Jax! She is regretting what she did last night...She feels like shit" Paul hissed and stared at me.
"Can't she talk for herself?" I asked. "So Ashley needed to send her brother to defend her because we fucked last night?" I asked and Paul tightened his fists. I grinned before walking out from MY apartment leaving Paul standing alone.
It was raining outside and the rain was dripping down from my hair. I sat down in my car and groaned.
I know where I'm going. I need to talk to her.
I started my car and drove to her house. It only took a few minutes before I where outside her house.
-Ashley Roberts POV-
I was laying in my bed with my pillow over my head listening to the rain dripping against the windowsill. I hate him. But he didn't do anything last night. This is my fault. Why did I let Jax Martinéz take my virginity?
I already know the answer in that...when he began to touch me I couldn't dare to tell him to stop. I wanted the more... I felt pleasure and that's something I haven't felt before.
His warm hands against my skin made me feel something I never felt before.
I could hear how the door to my room opened and I sighted. I have been alone at home all day. "Dad please leave" I groaned but he didn't answer.
"Dad?" Jax asked and lifted the pillow up from my head. I looked up at him. "What are you doing here?" I mumbled and looked at him. This is the second time I thought it was dad entering my room.
His dark brown hair was wet from the rain. When Jax's hair was wet it almost looked black. I stared at him. He looked serious.
"You sended Paul to do what? Beat me up?" He asked and I sat up and looked at him. "What?" I asked and Jax rolled his eyes "Well as you know I fucked you last night-" He said. "Yeah I know but what did Paul do?"
"He cares about his little sister you sent so him to my apartment...?" Jax said.
"I didn't send him. You still haven't told me what you're doing here?" I said and stood up. "You aren't in school today?" He said. "Not you either" I said. "Why?" He asked. "I didn't feel good"
"Because I took your virginity?" He asked. I didn't answer. "Is that such a bad thing? Didn't you feel any pleasure last night?" He asked and looked at me. I widened my eyes.
"I did...but that's the bad thing!" I looked at Jax. "What?" He stared at me. "Jax you fuck sluts. And I'm not a slut or a hoe. I don't want to feel good when you're touching me!" I took a deep breath. "I want to be able to say no to you even though it feels good when you touch me... because I know you're not good for me..."
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