𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙣𝙩 - phil foden

𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲-𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞

i watch phil leave the room and lay in bed, i cover my face with my hands.

i fall asleep, trying not to think about it.

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n e x t  d a y

i rub my eyes open, "ph-." i say before remembering what happened last night

"oh." i say quietly to myself sighing

i roll out of bed and get dressed

i grab my phone, i know i shouldn't look, but i have to see what he had messaged.

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phil foden: morning how did you sleep? can we please talk, i can't get you out my mind x

phil foden: come over to my room when you're ready?

phil foden: i love you so much, only you, it's always been you x

me: i just don't get it

phil foden: i was an idiot, i never meant any of it

me: would you rather be with her?

phil foden: i know you know the answer to that, i'd pick you over her anyday. 

me: i need you to do something

phil foden: anythin x

me: give me her instagram

phil foden: @𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱 

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it gave me slight relief, that he was happy enough for me to get contact with her.

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@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱 : unforgettable xxx

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@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: couples night xx @philfoden

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@𝐩𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐟𝐨𝐝𝐞𝐧: 💓

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@𝐦𝐞: please don't message phil again

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: who are you babe? xx

@𝐦𝐞: oh me? just you know, phil's girlfriend

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: oops! did i do something? xxx

@𝐦𝐞: did you? you tell me

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: he was mine first babe, and he will always be x

@𝐦𝐞: i think you're mistaken...

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: omg am i too late????!?!?!?! i bet you guys haven't even kissed🤣🤣

@𝐦𝐞: multiple times xxxx

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: you'll never like him how i do xx

@𝐦𝐞: that's cause i love him

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: keep dreaming that he'll love you back darl xx

@𝐦𝐞: he was the first to say it, sorry to break it to you

@𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐨𝐱: how long have you been going out? xxxxx

@𝐦𝐞: less than a week 🤪

𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘯

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i put my phone down and brush my teeth and wash my face before going down and trying to find myself around.

"miss southgate? can i help you?" i hear a voice say

i turn around and see a man in a very smart suit, "oh hi yes actually, where do i get some food?" i ask

"ah now go straight down and second door on the left." he says

"thank you so much." i say

"see you around." he says before we both walk off in different directions

i get to the canteen and it was just like st georges, a buffet.

"y/n!" i hear someone shout

i turn around to see phil sat at a table by himself, "i got your favorite." he adds

i didn't know what to do. i was confusing myself.

"you don't have to talk to me, just come and eat." he says noticing i'm not getting any closer

i give in, i was hungry. i walk over to the table he was sat at and sit opposite him pulling the plate of jam toast closer towards me.

"thanks." i say looking down

"no problem." phil replies, "excited for today?"

"i thought you said we weren't gonna talk." i say

"look." he says putting his spoon for his cereal down

he grabs my hand that i wasn't using to eat my toast and holds it.

"i'm really sorry for what you saw. but you have to know that you're the only one i'd pick" he says

"but everything you're saying isn't adding up, i get it, you'd pick me, but then why text her?" i ask

"you wanna know the truth? i was scared." he says

"of what?" i ask

"her." phil replies

"why?" i ask

"she used to be really controlling and..." he starts to say

"and what?"i ask

"she'd hit me." he says

"what why?" i ask

"just if i didn't do what she was saying." he says

"why didn't you tell me this?" i ask

"i don't like talking about myself to you." he says

"you let me go on about me to you." i say

"yeah that's because i want to hear about you, you probably don't wanna listen to my problems." he says

"of course i do." i say, "that's what i'm here for."

"now are we going to be okay?" i ask

"if you forgive me." he says

"i do, cause now i know why you did it." i say

"thank you." he says

"you don't need to thank me." i reply

"yes i do." he says, "for doing this." he adds leaning in and kissing my lips

i pull away and sit back in my chair biting my lip.

"i know you want to shout at me so bad, but don't want to cause of what i just told you." he chuckles

"just saying, you'll be the one explaining to my dad if anyone got that on camera." i say