Pigeons,Carrots, and a boy named Louis

Chapter 18- Living a nightmare

~~~(Eleanor's P.O.V)~~~

-earlier that day-

"We all gather here today to send off another angel to heaven." The priest begins, his eyes glancing at the tiny casket laying before him. He sighs, trying to hold back his tears as he continues on with, " Tyler Lucas Calder earned his wings.." I can't comprehend the rest of his sentence as my crying blocks out my sense of hearing. Louis pulls me into his chest, my body failing to hold myself up. 

Zayn, Liam, Niall, and Louis all came to support me in my time of need. Harry tried everything he could to come but he had meetings to attend that were supposively 'non- resceduable'. That's okay..it's the thought that counts right? 

I failed to be a mother. I miserably failed. Please, I couldn't even provide for him so in order for D.C.Y.F to not take him I had to move him in with my dad and step mom. I did everything I could and that wasn't enough, he had to be taken from me in the worst way possible. If only I had one more chance.. 

-previous time- 

Its been 5 days since I've been told I lost my baby boy Tyler. No words can explain a mother's depression over loosing her child. He was my responsibility, he was my happiness.. he was everything to me. So here I am, laying on my bed in my room on the phone with my dad and half mom telling them the worst news that could ever be spoken. I watch as Liam and Niall carry out Tyler's mahogany crib. If it wasn't for Lou being next to me, holding my hand and rubbing my back, I'd probably be loosing it right now. Things have been tense between the two of us since the accident. No, I don't want to use the word 'tense' I'd rather say 'quiet' or 'different.' I don't understand why though. I feel empty, I feel lost.. but the worst part is that this nightmare has only just begun.

I turn my phone off and stare off into space, zoning out of reality. I don't know how the fandom is going to take this, I can only imagine what they are tweeting about me. They are going to hate me, they are absolutely going to hate me. They are going to think I'm irresponsible and a whore and a bloody idiot and I feel so overwhelmed its hurting me.

"Babe." Lou squeaks out, lightly placing his finger under my chin and turning my head towards him. "Please look at me" he begs. Then there's Louis, the boy that I fell in love with. The boy that who'm I was once babysitting is now my boyfriend, the one who promised me that he couldn't fix all my problems but he wouldn't let me face them alone.

I flash my eyes up, locking them with his blue orbs. The blue orbs that send tingles down my body, the blue orbs that make me feel safe and wanted. I'm living every teenagers dream, to have an insanely beautiful boyfriend that's an international celebrity. But why me? I don't deserve him, he shouldn't have to go through this... he deserves more than this.

"I love you" He whispers loud enough for me and only me to hear. My eyes feel wet as I take a deep breath in, trying to accept my new reality.

~~~(Louis' P.O.V)~~~

"I love you" I whisper to the most gorgeous girl in the world. I wish I knew what to do for her, she is hurting so much right now. Who could blame her? She loved Tyler with everything in her, he was hers. Nothing upsets me more than seeing her like this. Though, she's hiding something from me. I have a really bad feeling she knows who caused the accident, and why it happened. The police never found the man, but they are sending the truck through analysis. Results should be coming in soon, any time now.

"I love you too" She shakily whispers back, water streaming out of her eyes. I wipe them away with my finger, I don't like it when she's sad,upset,or crying. She deserves more than this, here I am the useless boyfriend who has no clue on how to help her get through this. I wrap myself around her and pull her into my chest, her weak body collapsing in my arms.

~~~(Harry's P.O.V)~~~

I peak in from the doorway as I watch Eleanor surrender to Louis. I feel so bad for her, the fact that she lost Tyler and the fact that Louis doesn't know how to handle this situation. I don't mean to offend but Louis.Is.Useless.Period.

I shake my head and walk away, she deserves more than him.She deserves someone who would go to Starbucks and get her a coffee every morning, she deserves someone who would shower her with kisses, she deserves someone who would make her the queen of his world. She deserves someone like me.

I sigh as I push Louis' bedroom door open and walk in. Nothing has changed.. the curtains are still shut,the bed is made (which is rare), his closet is empty because he moved all his stuff into El's room.. that was probably the last time he was in here was when he was moving into El's room with her.

I plop down on his mattress and all of a sudden I feel something weird under my arse. I move my butt a little and fly off the mattress. I turn around and scan the comforter. It doesn't appear to be like there's anything under it, however just to make sure there isn't anything there, I peel back the comforter. I can feel my eyes bulging out of my skull as I pick up a scampy, hot pink piece of underwear. As far as I'm concerned, I don't remember Louis wearing thongs..and trust me,if he did I WOULD remember. I look at it more closely and the thing is MASSIVE! Please, it could be a freaking cape. There is no way this giant arse thing would fit on or belong to Eleanor. Now things just took another spike downhill,what is Louis doing behind Eleanor's back? And by the looks of it, it doesn't look like he's up to any good.

~~authors note~~

Thank you all for your prayers, unfortunately my grandmother passed this morning at 4:20am.. I received the call at 4:30am.. not the most wonderful thing to wake up to.

I hope you all enjoy the chapter.. so I leave you with a couple cliff hangers:

1) Do you think Eleanor is hiding something from Louis?

2) What is Louis doing behind Eleanor's back?

3) Is Harry secretly crushing on Eleanor?

Hmmmmm... leave predictions IN THE COMMENT BOX:)

And I'd like to also thank you for the 1,700 reads.. I remember I said I would owe you guys if you gave me 1,000 so here my "owe-sation"

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