Deeper into Darkness | ChanHoMin

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seungmin cried into his hands as he sat in the corner of his room.

he missed felix, he missed felix so much he could hardly handle it, he didn't know why he said he didn't want to see felix because he did  desperately, but he didn't want to disappoint  them.

"seungmin!"

seungmin covered his ears, sobbing as he lowered his head, trying to block out the voice that was smooth like honey.

"puppy?"

he fought it off and ignored it, sniffling quietly.

"darling, where are you?"

he had left chan's bed in the middle of his night and was hiding in his room.

he couldn't do it, the guilt was too much he couldn't handle it. everything was so unbearably overwhelming he couldn't cope.

"aw, there's my pretty boy."

he tried desperately to not be drawn to him, biting down on his lip hard enough to bruise it in attempt to fight it off.

chan walked in and looked down at seungmin, smiling darkly.

"look at me."

seungmin didn't move, he kept his head down.

"seungmin, sweetheart, look at me."

he refused again, keeping his eyes down.

"look at me!"

seungmin flinched, whimpering as he braced himself for a blow. he looked up at chan, tears filling his eyes.

"now come here."

seungmin shook his head slowly, staying in the safety of hid corner.

chan raised a brow and slowly sat down on the floor, opening his arms. he stayed silent. he knew how much seungmin wanted him, he would wait until seungmin gave in.

seungmin was confused at first, but stayed where he was, looking at chan's arms. they did look warm, he knew they were warm, he knew what it felt like to cuddle into his chest and feel nothing but pure comfort. he resisted again and teared up, shaking his head.

"come here my love."

it was so hard to resist him, knowing what his arms felt like, knowing how soft and sweet chan could be to him but he couldn't give in, he had to prove he wasn't just their property, he could still choose for himself, they didn't have that much control but it wasn't working, the more he resisted the more he started to forget what he was trying to prove and wanted to be closer.

seungmin broke down, starting to cry hard as he gave in, he unravelled his body from the ball he was curled up in and slowly crawled towards chan, climbing into his arms and cuddling into his chest.

chan closed his arms around seungmin, getting a satisfied smile.

"everything hurts hyung." he whispered.

"show me where it hurts darling."

seungmin pointed to his chest, meaning his heart.

"just want you to love me."

"you want minho to love you too?"

seungmin nodded quickly as he cried.

"you know what seungmin?"

seungmin looked up at him, already feeling awful for giving in and cuddling up to chan like this.

"maybe we do love you."

seungmin tilted his head, his heart speeding up and his hopes soaring.

"y-you do?"

when chan nodded seungmin had never felt more complete, that this was his purpose. he had never felt feelings so intense or raw before, they loved him, he hadn't realised how much he had been longing for that until he heard it and his heart felt like it would explode at any second.