Moonlight Sonata

Just fade away

2 1/2 months have passed. I still haven't been to school i only go to pick up my work i need to do. The school ends in June on the 8th and my birthday is on the 2nd. Going there the rumors of me are mad saying different thing. I hear them whisper the rumors, saying i'm in a state beyond depression, that i gone psycho ect. I begun work with me acoustic guitar again. i have to right a song for my end of the year test. I even made progress to come out and speak to my parents. Not a deep conversation but just tiny ones. Yet they didn't even ask if i was okay? The house has been dull since i was 7 once the quit actually paying attention to me. Always working, leaving to places without me. It didn't bother me until my two rays of light left. Now the home seems empty with only me in it. The halls became shallow. The kitchen was once warm now its cold. The living-room was once alive but now it is only dead. Just watch the sky from my kitchen table, my head only in my hand in the other a mug of amarreto coffee hot chocolate mix.

Hmm.... It's lonely here. You wouldn't think Silence could hurt your ears. It does it screams with pain. I swear it could make your ears bleed. It seem that i begun to just fade away in my skin. I just need to fade away."haha........ha" my soft laugh echoed.

I need to do something.

"Sigh.....I really do need to do something."

"Ah i should bake a home-made snack."

"but what kind should i do....."

" There is brownies, cookies, cake....."

".....AH! I GOT IT!.... i shall make a cookie brownie cake. Good job me i knew i could think of something amazing." i projected while sipping my drink.

Now lets see i'm going to need these, and this oh and these, more of this stuff. got to get my bowl, whisk, apron. what else... oh yeah the eggs. Cant for get those.

" yep lets put the radio on."( old song station.) humming along i pulled my hair into a loose ponytail.

" ooooo. i should make them into volcano cakes with fudge in the middle."

~~~~time passes~~~~

'beeep, beeep, beeep.' Hopping of the counter. swiftly turning the stove off and opening it. after pulling out the tray, putting it on the island counter.

Letting it sit for 10 minutes.

" you know i should get out the heavy whipping cream and vanilla bean ice cream.... i need to quiet talking to my self."

Grabbing a bowl and spoon. flipping the pan over on the tray. they came out nicely done. Dude i am so getting diabetes from this. The dark chocolate brownies swirled with the cherry chipped cookie dough. before they were done i injected them with the hot fudge. not only are they the size of a small plate. I think i did a good job.

" mhm lets add a little powder sugar . adding two scoops of ice cream. lastly a dash of whip cream. then a drizzle of more fudge. Now the finish a black cherry with sprinkles on top. and i shall get a glass of milk."

Turning the radio off i taking my bowl and cup up the steps to my room. Flipping on the light i chill at my desk dazing out the window and munching on some food.

Maybe i am crazy. i know i'm lonely. but i have a strange gut feeling something is going to happen.

"My the sun set is colorful."

I guess i can start writing my song.