𝒮𝒶𝓊𝒹𝒶𝒹𝑒

𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑢𝑒

"Please, don't go, don't shut me off." She whispered, full of despair. Rain drops were falling across her face, through her hair and clothes. But it hadn't bother her as much as tears in his eyes.
"It'll be better if I disappear." He looked at the girl, woman actually, who have woken feelings he didn't even know he had.

"For who? Because not for me, that's for sure." Her voice uncontrollably started to shake. She tried to catch his hand to make him change his mind. He knew that any contact - by only looking at each other, would make him change his mind. No, he had to do what was right for her, even if firstly it causes such a damage. She wanted to fight for both of them but he knew he had been lost since the beggining, otherwise than her. Worthy of what's the best, part of place he never could be part of.

"I'm not worthy, please, don't make it more difficult than it already is." he turned his gaze, looking up at the midnight sky.

"No, don't you even try to change my mind! You're coming with me, I won't leave you." She sobbed out, barely taking a breath.

"But I do, I'm sorry. I love you. One day I hope you understand."

"No!" She was almost screaming but because of crying her voice sounded almost terrifying, like emanating from the deepest place in the ocean. She was drowning. Because of what he allowed to happen between them. 
 
"Please, turn the page. It was the best of times, I couldn't imagine better company than you. Don't worry, I won't forget you. But please, don't come back. Try to forget, get a fresh start with someone real, someone who will be better than me." He said slightly and comforting, like he always did when she felt insecure or not well enough. She knew that this moment was coming since the beggining. She had taken the risk anyway and now it was time to pay for it. She took a deep breath and for the last time looked at him. He was perfect in his imperfections.

"Okay..." she took few steps, her hand ran through the last page. "Goodbye then. I love you too."

"Promise me you are not going to come back."

"I promise." She crossed her fingers so he did that too. The page had been turned. She kissed cover of the book gently.

And then she opened it again. She knew she promised, but he was her addiction, her drug she couldn't live without. She couldn't get enough of him, she didn't want to.