The Shield One Shots (On Hold)

Anymore (Roman) Drabble

Description: Roman recalls memories
Warning: Kinda sad

Roman closes the door of his car, leaning against it for a moment he looks up at the night sky. It was going to start raining any moment and he really shouldn't stick out in it. He just needed a second to breathe and try to keep his knees from giving out. Inhaling he pushes off the car and heads up the steps and unlocks the door. He wanted nothing more then to turn around and leave, forgetting all about this house.

Pushing the door open, Roman steps inside dropping his bag on the floor. The scent of her perfume still filled the house, he could hear her laughter bouncing off the walls in his mind. Pushing it aside he removes his shoes after locking the door and grabs his bag once more. Ignoring the rest of the house he quickly makes his way up the steps.

Coming face to face with the bedroom door he shakily reaches a hand out and turns the handle pushing inward. The sight was enough to knock the wind out of him. Every trace of her had been wiped clean. The old blanket he had on the bed when she first came over, the one they shoved in the closet. Was now once again laid across the bed. Replacing the crimson red blanket they had picked out together.

All the pillows she had worked to adjust in the mornings that he teasingly would say she loved more than him were now gone. Leaving behind his two pillows. Her perfume was heaviest in here, nearly as heavy as his heart was. Placing the bag on the now-empty dresser top Roman sits on his side of the bed. His mind was racing, body trembling as he worked to keep all the emotions back.

The memories were making that difficult as they came rushing forward.

"Babygirl stop wiggling!"

Roman laughs, giving y/n's ass a light smack as he carries her up the stairs.

"I don't wanna fall, Ro!"

"You won't, you should know I would never let you fall."

Kissing the side of her leg he makes his way up into their room opening the door. After stepping inside he kicks the door shut and goes over dumping y/n on the bed. Crawling over her, he chuckles, pressing kisses to any inch of exposed skin he could find. Until he worked his way up to her lips. Kissing them softly, Roman grins when she sighs softly.

Lifting his head, Roman watches her beautiful eyes open and feels his heart swell.

"What?"

"Nothing, just thinking about how much I love you."

"I love you too babe so much."

"You mean that?"

"Of course I do, Roman, you should know that I love you and I always will."

"I love you always too, baby girl."

Roman covers his face with his hands stifling a sob as he closes his eyes.

"Y/n please don't do this. We can work on this. I'll take time off, we'll go wherever you want. Work on the two of us."

"I'm sorry Ro, I just can't."

Y/n whispers as she packs her bag up fighting back tears.

"I'll clear my stuff from the house before you get back from the tour. I'm sorry it's happening this way."

Shaking his head, Roman wipes his eyes looking up at her.

"You said always. You promised me that we would always be together, always."

"I know, it just. I'm sorry Roman...but I can't love you anymore."

Y/n whispers, zipping her back shut she walks over hugging him tightly and kissing his cheek. Then turns walking from the hotel room and out of his life.

Roman falls back on the bed. His pillow resting on his face to keep his crying quiet. He had never felt so broken and there was nothing he could do to change it.