"Why are you so difficult!" He yelled
I wiped my tears of my cheeks.
That only kept dripping.
Down and down.
"Why!" He continued. "I'm so sick of it you just play me! You let me hold you and kiss you! I don't get it your just never there. you respond to everything just it's not like you really love me how I love you.....is it that hard I love me.?"
I stared at his face, it was broken sad the bags under his eyes gave away his lack of sleep. "no it's not"
"DAMMIT THEN WHY!"
he exploded today not any other day.
I let out a sob. His fist hit the wall right next to me. He looked strait at my eyes before collapsing. He screamed and sobbed. "fuck why.." I slid my back down the wall next to him. I reached out and ran my fingers though his blonde hair. "shhhh" I said calming him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me into him. He wrapped him self around me. holding me closer than he ever has.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
"I know I am too"
I leaned back pressing my back to his chest. He kissed my hair softly.
I cried. He dealt with me. I know I love somebody else but I love him too. he's always been there for me. But I don't deserve him he's to kind and sweet.
Any girl could have him but he chose me. It hurts knowing I can't give him what he really needs not what he wants. "shh don't cry" he cooed softly. I turned slightly burring my head in to his chest. He wrapped his arm around my waist and rubbed the small of my back.
"I'm always going to love you. Even with another girl because you will always be the first girl I've loved."
"Always" I replied.
