ALPHA ROGUE: UNTOLD (Part 2: Alpha Rogue)

11 - Memories

Thalia's POV

My feet trailed to Aiyu's empty room. Unlike a normal room, there is no bed but a big sofa whenever he wants to lie down not that he needed to sleep. There are more books than anything in his room and some papers are left scattered around.

"At least clean your room." I murmured. I told him countless times to at least clean those papers when he's done. He often asks me where is where and I ended up cleaning it for him. I sat at his chair stacking the papers properly. His scent still lingers probably because he mostly stayed in. I seldom see him going out, and for what reason, I don't know. Aiyu never told me what he is doing. 'You know, this and that.' or 'You can call me whenever and I will be there. I'm never busy for you.' He often reminds me. Whenever I see him, he is either staring somewhere or writing something.

I noticed the old looking book he keeps on hiding from me. For some reason, this is the only thing that he does not want me to touch.

'It's not ready for you.'

'You can read everything in this room but not this. Not yet.'

The book has his scent and I couldn't help but held it. The cover is as ancient as he is; he would surely yell at me if he heard it. He never wanted to be regarded as an old man. I don't know what his exact age is, he never told me anything from before he came to our pack. Without much thought, I found myself opening the book, only it's not a book. It's a journal.

'To mine own beloved, may thou find thy way.' The first page says. There are traces of this page being dampened by something. This doesn't look like his handwriting. Was this a gift? But... beloved? He won't mind if I read this now, right?

1

I miss you.

The nights gone colder and the passing time became an eternal curse.

I miss you. Regard not of what had befell.

It was not thy fault that they made you keep an eye on me. I don't care if you are a spy, because you are my beloved. It was not your fault but mine own negligence. I knew that the elders have their eyes on the old throne but I kept a blind eye. They put the blame on me for the sin of murdering you, but I know what they did. However, it is still my fault that you died. I was unable to do anything but be a killer of my own. Worry not. I already killed them. I don't regret it even if it means that I will relinquish my right to the throne. I was never meant to lead them. I knew that. I've seen that. But what I never saw was you leaving me. My foresight is useless against death.

I miss you. My beloved Elizabeth.

Beloved? Isn't that the same thing as mates for the vampires?

2

How are you? I miss you every day. I decided to heed your advice to go to the Moonstone pack. They were surprisingly welcoming. They did not mind that I am different. It was unexpected but I made friends. I also met the friend you talked about, Lianne also wanted to see you again. She wanted to tell you that she has found her mate. It was Ash, the Alpha of Moonstone. She said that you need not worry, Ash is a good person. Though I think he looks too serious for his age. But they are perfect for each other. They love each other.

Eliz, I wish you were here.

24

Nathalia Rhianne. That is the name of their newborn daughter. A quiet baby. Ash and Lianne wanted me to be as one of the guardians for their little one. I wish I know more about children. You mention that you want to take care of children. Do you have any notes I can refer to? I know you like writing things down. To keep record of your life, is that why you gave me this journal?