P.O.V. Yuki
To be a rookie in Formula 1 had made me really excited because everything was so new. I had been looking forward to drive in the highest class of motorsport for a long time and it made me incredibly proud to be part of it.
One thing that made me quite nervous was the get to know with my new teammate who was no other than Pierre Gasly. As a Red Bull junior I of course followed the actions of the Red Bull and Alpha Tauri drivers. The one I followed right from the beginning was him. I couldn't put my finger on it but he had something on him what attracted my attention.
In my opinion it was unfair to him to degrade him from Red Bull to Alpha Tauri but that wasn't my decision. Even more I found his achievements with Alpha Tauri really impressive, above all his win in Monza last year. It was fascinating for me how he handled the hardships with Red Bull and then showed the world what he was capable of, even in a less stronger car. I wish him only the best and I hope he can some time reach the highest goal - to become World Champion. For me, he is the one who deserves it more than anyone else. He works so hard for it.
When I first met Pierre, all my expectations were beaten. He is the kindest, most charming and most handsome guy I've ever got to know in my life. His aura was impressive, you could feel it when he was in a room. Over the last months we bonded really good as teammates and I found a good friend in him.
The problem was that I mayyybe had fallen for him as well. I once had suddenly realized that I had feelings for him that went beyond these you would have for a good mate. If I'm honest it didn't took me very long to understand it because I've always had liked him in a special way but this shouldn't have happen. That was not allowed to be. Pierre would never develop feelings for me anyway. I am not good enough for him. My performance in F1 isn't good enough and I'm not worth having this seat. Pierre deserves better.
I figured out I'd have to get rid of my feelings as soon as possible. So I saw no other option than to stay away from him. It hurt, it hurt really much but it probably was the best for both of us.
P.O.V. Pierre
Since we were announced to drive for 2022 again at Alpha Tauri, I noticed how Yuki distanced himself from me. Before that we talked way more with each other and I had the feeling that he wanted to shake me off whenever I tried to approach him. He also acted differently in my presence. He was more reserved and always tried to end our conversations quickly.
I tried a couple of times to talk to him about it but he always blocked me by saying he had an appointment or he had any other excuse.
So also this time but I didn't want to play his games anymore.
"Yuki wait!" I grabbed his wrist to stop him from walking away from me. He wanted to protest but I pulled him into my drivers room, not letting him get a word.
I stopped in the middle of the small room and let go of his wrist. He looked at me in shock.
"Hey, Yuki. I just want to talk to you. What's wrong? Lately, you've been avoiding me and whenever I want to talk to you, you always find an excuse to not. Please tell me what's going on." I almost plead in the end hoping he would eventually speak.
After quite a long while of silence he only answers, "I'm not distancing myself from you!"
I sighed. "Yes, you are. You can't deny it." He looked at me with a blank expression. "Before that we talked much more. You were more open and joyful but now you're always absent." I explained and looked at him awaitingly.
