are we even friends? | doyoung

..six..

its been a couple months.
4 months to be exact.

why was he ignoring me , i mean its not like i did anything to upset taeyong...right ? i kept over-thinking about this situation. and every now and then id check my phone to see if hes at least read my messages , but you guess it nothing.

it hurt. it hurt knowing that hes probably ignoring me. it hurt seeing him post all these pictures on instagram looking so happy with his new friends. it hurt having jaehyun tell me him and taeyong would text all night , or call for like 8 hours straight. but one day jaehyun said something id never expect him to say...
"taeyong called you clingy and said that you were a crybaby" he said looking a bit sympathetic.

"oh" was all i could say.

suddenly all the fun memories we had came back to me. all the times wed laugh until our lungs were in desperate need for air , all the times wed stay up late texting eachother , all the times we hung out after school.

was that nothing to him ?
it seemed like it..

after thinking about it for about ten minutes i told jaehyun i had to leave his house because my mom texted me to come home. but that was a lie...my mom never texted me , she had a late shift again why would she bother texting me to come home early if she wasnt home yet ? but jaehyun didnt know , so he just nodded and walked me to his door quickly closing it as i left.

as i was walking home i notticed something about my mother and i , our relationship was getting worse than it already was. no  more doing sweet stuff every now and then , no more her comforting me when i was said , and no more having nice and lovely moments. it was only her talking down on me , or ignoring me. saying things like
"why are you so lazy" "youre such a dissapointment" or "what has happened to you , you were so good months ago butnow you look so dead and depressed...theres nothing for you to be sad about. youre to young to feel like that"
but like i said before , what does she know ? 

as i reached the place i called home i checked the time. 7:58 pm
'oh god im so exhausted' i thought as i went to my room and quickly changed into some sweats and a white loose shirt. then i brushed my teeth and laid in my bed. yet again i checked the time. 8:07pm

'perfect' i thought as my stomach grumbled , i noticed ive only eaten a fruit bowl today in the morning...thats been happening a lot. only eating a snack for the whole day and then going to sleep , or  just one meal then going to sleep. it was hurting my health , but i didnt really care anymore. my mom never noticed nor did jaehyun so as long as they didnt know i was fine.

as soon as i closed my eyes ignoring my loud stomach i instantly fell asleep. 

another day , another day that taeyong has ignored me again.

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two updates in a day ! im very happy about that :D hope you guys liked it have a nice day/night byee <3