You won't admit you love me
And so how am I ever to know?
You always tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...
Hello again, I'm back! This is a long and important chapter. I know you've all been waiting for something to happen between our ladies, sorry for making you wait, but we's finally getting there I promise. Now I don't want to bore you any longer, ENJOY!
On the day of their trip, Şahika was doing some last-minute packing. "Toothbrush, skin care products, a box of tampons just in case...there I'm packed and ready to go!"
She raised her head at Simba's constant meowing, "aww, I know baby. I don't want to leave you here either, but unfortunately, I have to. Don't worry, though, Mrs. Candan will come and feed you constantly, so you won't stay hungry."
Then she picked her cat up and pet him on the head, "one week is going to come and go in no time...I promise"
She took a brief look at her watch, "oh my is that the time!? I must flee now, be a good boy, ok? Bye".
Before she left the building, Şahika rang the landlord downstairs one last time to remind her to feed Simba. "Good afternoon Mrs.candan sorry to bother you, I'm leaving now so if you would be so kind to feed my cat during this week I would be grateful...here is my spare key..." she took the key out of her pocket and handed it to the woman "...you can let yourself in."
"Of course dear, don't worry I won't forget it"
"Yes...thank you again, umm...goodbye"
"Bye dear."
***
It seemed she was a bit early to the airport. No one had arrived yet! Quickly she sent a text to caner, "where are you."
'We're on our way. Stuck in the traffic though...it's going to take a while'.
Well, there was no use waiting in the middle of the airport aimlessly. So Şahika handed her suitcase to the cargo and went to treat herself to a coffee. An espresso sounded wonderful, actually. She had a long flight ahead, and honestly, she felt it would be better not to fall asleep. Anything to avoid jet-lag really; with that thought in mind, she started walking towards the airport coffee-shop. Espresso it was.
***
After her coffee came, Şahika took the cup and chose herself a table in the corner to sit on. She began to blow on her coffee as she thought about her week.
Nothing interesting had happened during the time she had learned she was going to Prague until now really, just busy with work and preparing for the trip. But she did feel lonelier than usual, though. It was because of H's absence in her life, she knew that, but still wasn't willing to admit it to herself. The woman who she had poured her heart out to had left her all alone, and that hurt. Yes, but Şahika still wasn't ready to admit to herself that she had missed her terribly.
And strangely, ender had somehow managed to avoid her all week long as well. Of course, it's not like she saw her 24\7 but still...it was a bit obvious.
But Ender wouldn't be able to avoid her from now on, would she? Especially on this trip? No. They were working side by side for a week, their rooms were on the same floor. They were bound to see each other and talk eventually. 'Ender won't be able to avoid me forever,' she thought. In fact, she promised herself, she would try to spend some time with Ender on this trip. 'I hope this doesn't get me fired, but I'm desperate here. I want to talk to her, I want her to see me.'
