Sole Mate [ HK. ]

Venticinque.

Now this is where

I get so confused.

Is the doe-eyed boy

still trying to make me

feel less bad,

because of the mere bond

we've made?

Why do I feel

like the world

is favouring me right now,

as if it were my companion

from the beginning?

But I could not,

I would not anymore,

I would never want

to live in a world

full of lies and falsities

so for the first time,

I get in front of them,

and speak up.

"Please . . . I know

you just want to make me

feel less bad,

but there is no use of it

when this guy,

Jimin,

is going to turn twenty . . ."

I look at the doe-eyed boy,

and he seem as confused

as I was when he had said

I am his soulmate

just earlier.

"Why are you

saying funny things too,

Hoseok Hyung?"

he asks me,

his eyes losing their spark

and his smile

getting upside down.

"I know you're doing this

just because we've formed

a strong bond,

but this has to end,

at some point,

Jeonggukie . . .

You're not my soulmate,

and I'm not yours,

so let's just accept the fact

and move on . . ."

"Hyung,

what are you saying?"

I turn away,

and I just want to run away

from them,

from life,

and from every single thing

in the world,

and for the first time

in my life,

I think of Yoongi,

I think of jumping

into his arms,

and he's going to welcome me

as my soulmate

as always.

He's always

been there for me,

how could I turn

a blind eye

just because of a love

for someone

whom I'm not even

deserving of?

Yet at all sudden,

the doe-eyed kid pulls me back,

back to his embrace,

back to his life,

back to just him and him only,

and yells desperately at me.

"I see light

in you,

Hyung!

You're saying funny things,

and I still believe you,

but you're my soulmate!

How can I not be

yours?"