Who Will Fix Me Now? (Kellic)

Chapter 10

Trigger warning guys! Also this chapter is in Vic's POV just so you know how he felt because I know that the story is about Kellin telling the story to his therapist but I wanted you to know a bit more about Vic's state of mind and stuff like that :) and I decided that I will write another chapter after this one which will be once again in Kellin's POV

Enjoy!!!!

*Vic's POV 12 days ago*

I love him

I love him

I love...him

Staring at the person you love is like hearing your favorite song for the first time; your belly feels funny, you smile for no apparent reason, and you're just overall happy. That's how I felt, looking at the sleeping boy underneath my body, I loved him, always had and always will and I knew he would love me forever as well but there still was something...it just wasn't enough. His love wasn't enough.

It wasn't enough to stop the thoughts running through my head. It wasn't enough to make me believe in brighter future. It wasn't enough to stop me from frowning as I thought about what I was about to do. And it certainly wasn't enough to stop me from doing it either...

I wasn't always like this, it wasn't until the fifteenth year of my life, I began having those thoughts. Would somebody miss me if I died right at the moment? Would somebody care? Would they be able to fix me?

The answer was no, they wouldn't. I started taking drugs just to feel something but then Kellin came on and I lay low for a while. I thought that Kellin would fix me, I believed that he would be the one that would save me from my own self but as usually, I was dead wrong.

He was just a reason to stay on the Earth a bit longer. I loved everything about him. I adored him so much. He wasn't ashamed to talk to me, he was my best friend, he loved me. It was all good while it lasted.

But as they say, nothing lasts forever.

"Ugh, how long have you been awake for?" The boy muttered, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes before the pupils landed on me. I shrugged and pecked his lips softly. Why? Because I fucking could and the grin he shot me afterwards was totally fucking worth it.

"Yeah, so, uhm...I should probably go buy the food like I planned before somebody stopped me." He raised his eyebrow at me and smirked a little. He sat up with me still in his lap and we just stared at each other for a while before he shook his head and rested his forehead against mine. His arms snaked around my waist, holding me close to his warm body. I did the same with my arms, rubbing small circles into his sides.

"What are you doing to me..." He whispered with a sigh.

"I'm sorry?" I asked, unsure about what I was apologising for. He just laughed, shaking his head once again.

"It's alright." He told me, pulling away. He smiled and pushed me away softly, standing up from the couch. "I'm gonna go get the grocery, you comin' with me?" He asked. I shook my head and let out a fake yawn.

"I think I'm gonna get some more sleep." I lied.

"Alright, see you later then." He smiled, walking into the kitchen and grabbing the list he made earlier. This was the last time I was seeing him and I was about to just let him walk away?

"Hey Kells." I told him as he opened the front door. He turned to me and raised his eyebrow. "I just...um, I'll miss you." I admitted. He grinned at me and rushed back over to me quickly.

"I'll miss you too." He whispered, placing a sweet kiss on my dry, chapped lips. My eyes started watering as I kissed him back. His teeth captured my bottom lip and then he pulled away with a smirk. "I'll be back in a moment, I promise." He smiled and walked away from me. He was about to shut the door when I yelled his name again. "Yes?" He laughed, poking his head between the door to look at me.