Dressed For Death

CHAPTER 13

JULIETTE

"Shut up," I said to Nathan as I sat down on his bed.

"The guy's so whipped about you" He laughed as he ate his dinner. It didn't look very good, but I guess it was eatable.

"We're just a normal couple. Plus, we're still getting to know each other. He can't be already in love with me" I shrugged. Nathan put down his fork and positioned himself on his bed to look like an old therapist.

"Do you think someone isn't capable of loving you because of dad?" He asked me and my eyes slightly widened at the straightforward question.

I wasn't expecting him to ask such a deep question, especially when I doubt myself most of the time.

"I don't know. It scares me for sure, but I'm scared at how much I've grown attached to him and that he'll maybe leave me" I told him.

It may be one of my fears to be abandoned and maybe that's why I cut ties with people before they can leave me.

I never thought about how much my mother's death affected me and I didn't want to think about it too. She didn't abandon me by choice, but my father did.

Maybe the thought of someone loving me scares me too, but I have no idea why. I guess it's normal to feel this way.

"You shouldn't let that fear restrain you from loving him. You can love him you know" He said back and he took a big bite of his food after.

"Love isn't simple, but I fear I've gone too far to back down now. He's already too deep in my heart to let him go." I sighed and let myself fall on my back on the soft mattress.

"All I want for you is to be happy and he's the reason you've been smiling so much lately," Nathan said to me.

He wasn't in the wrong, Hayden did make me extremely happy and I never wanted it to end.

What pained me is how much I felt alone despite his reassuring presence. It pained me that I couldn't talk about him to my mother.

Of course, I could go to her grave and pretend she was listening to me from above, but it wasn't like talking to her in real life.

I wished I could've told her how happy he makes me feel and that he makes my worries disappear every day.

"Stop thinking so much" Nathan scolded me. My head turned to face him and I glared at him.

"Suck my dick" I sneered at him and he flipped me off.

"Okay it's the last one and I'll stop" I chuckled as Hayden rolled his eyes.

"What do you call a can opener that doesn't work?" I asked him and he shrugged.

"A can't opener!" I laughed and Hayden smiled as he bit in his sandwich.

"You're extremely funny lady death" He grinned. I smiled as I continued to eat my gigantic plate of waffles.

It became a little routine of ours to come to eat at the restaurant where he first asked me what I thought about the case we were currently working on.