Bestfriends- Ciaran McDonald

🌌chapter 12🌌 (tw)

January 3rd, 2019
Friday
5:18PM

(BRIEF MENTION OF AN ED)

"Grab the otherside its too heavy for me" i said as i held one side of the box that we were carrying out to my car. We finally got it into my trunk and i put my case on top of it and shut the trunk.

Today is my first real show. Ciaran somehow got people from rca to come out to one of my shows and possibly sign me.

I get nervous playing in front of 20 people at a cafe i have no clue how im gonna do this with like 1000 people in the crowd.

"Ready?" Ciaran asked as he walked over to me. I nodded my head hesitantly and we got into the car. He started up the car an we left the house.

I leaned my head against the window, watching the cars and trees pass by as a way to try to contain my anxiety. Ciaran took my skaky hand in his as his other sat on the steering wheel.

"Don't worry marcey. You're great" he said. "You only say that because you have to" i said and he squeezed my hand a little bit. "I mean it marceline. listen, you're gonna get signed and go and do big things" he said rubbing the top of my hand with his thumb.

"But what if i just freeze up there" i said. The light turned red and he turned to look at me. "Marcey, i know you. You're gonna be just fine once you get up there" he said.

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Laney greeted us as we got out of the car and helped bring my equipment inside the venue. She pulled me aside, away from ciaran into a corner. 

"When are you two gonna date already its driving me crazy" she said. "Trust me i wish I knew" i said. "We you knowed" i whispered.

"SHUT UP" she yelled causing ciaran to turn and give us a weird look. I put my hand over her mouth and she licked it. "You're gross laney" i said wiping my hand on the side of my jeans.

"When?" She asked. "Like a week ago" i said. "So you just weren't going to tell me?" She asked and i chuckled. "I didn't get the chance" i said.

"How have yall been since?" She asked. "Its literally like it never happened. Like we're back to being friends. No flirting or anything anymore" i said.

"Marce, time to get ready" ciaran said and i walked to my dressing room where ian and nick sat organizing my clothes for me. "Okay here and these shoes" nick said placing the clothing in my hands.

I slipped on the black mini shirt paired with a pair of ripped tights under and a black corset top. I looked at myself in the mirror and spent 5 minutes hating the way my stomach showed in the shirt.

I guess ive never really liked my body. Ive never felt skinny enough to be beautiful which as you could imagine, steered me the wrong way in high school. I went to recovery hospitals more than my house.

I snapped myself out of my thoughts and slipped my boots on and walked out of the bathroom. "You look amazing" ian said. "Thank you" i said. "Hey what's wrong?" Ciaran asked coming behind me.

"Nothing" i said looking down. "Marcey i can tell when you're lying" he said. "I just thought about something i didn't want to" i said adjusting my shirt and it was clear that something clicked in his head.

"Marceline come on...you're beautiful"he said moving my hand from over my stomach. "Here, if this helps you feel better wear this" he said taking off his hoodie and handing it to me.

"Thank you" i said lowly as i put the hoodie over my head. "Marceline you're on in 5!" Someone from the tech crew announced and i felt my anxiety building up.