drunk, dazed

given and taken

Being an idol has always been Jay's dream. Ever since he watched his company senior, BTS' Blood, Sweat and Tears music video, he had a sudden motivation or inspiration or whatever you call it, to pursue his one true dream in becoming an idol. He acknowledges the hustle bustle of the industry; he realizes the fact that the entertainment is not all sunshine like they were portrayed to be.

But those facts didn't stop him to explore the entertainment world with his own will. If he's going to do this, he's going to make it a fulfilling one. That's how Park Jongseong always live his life.

Debuting really seems surreal to him. He hadn't even able to grasp the fact that he'd make it to the final line. But now that he's fogged with his own breath in Enhypen's new dormitory bathroom, he realized that the start to his new beginning is surely approaching. Having rushed from one place to another place is surely exhausting, to add, with their intense routine for their debut, he finds it overwhelming at times. Thus, he really treasures his me time, his alone time like this. Even just to freshen up, alone by himself, after dance training at the end of the day. He cherishes it a lot.

"Jongseng-ahhhhh, hurry up! I've waited for three hours here, yknow? Just what on earth are you doing inside, Jay-yahhh?" Someone shouts from the other side of the door along with a few hurried knocks.

Jay's lips quirk up into a tiny smirk. That's his silly friend, Sunghoon. He can't understand how someone can be as dramatic as Sunghoon, he's literally been waiting for just 15 minutes.

Jay shakes his head. Sunghoon sure is weird, but an adorable one.

"Then, maybe another 15 minutes won't hurt you, Sunghoon-ah." Jay replies jokingly.

"What? Yah, Park Jongseong! You better come out now! I can barely lift my eyes now. I want to sleep, Jay-yaa." Jay can hear Sunghoon whines from the other side. He must be pouting now.

Jay chuckles. His best friend is cute.

"But I thought I'm out already." Jay retorts back. Adding fuel to the fire.

"YAHHH PARK JONGSEONG!! YOU BETTER DRAG YOUR ASS HERE BEFORE I BREAK THIS DOOR!" Sunghoon barks while knocking the door loudly.

Jay can't help but laughs loudly at that. And can't help but ponder on something.

He's grateful. Being an idol truly is tiring but he appreciates little things and people around him. And most definitely the happiness that comes through them.

26 October 2020, 2.43 am

Jay feels like he's in the cloud as everything was blurry and hazy. He looks around, trying to locate where he is at the moment. He can see that there's a huge field lays in front of him. It's not the field with the grass one, but what displayed in front of him is a huge clearing with red soils instead. And it's surrounded with some huge walls and olden like bleachers. To simplify, it kind of look like an archery range, since Jay can see the target/foam blocks on the further end of the land.

To note, everything here seems like it belongs to an ancient/historical Korean drama. The one that can usually be seen on television. Jay wonders on why he's here.

Jay can see that he's still wearing his black shirt and pajama pants. And it's cold, most probably around midnight. Maybe he's dreaming right now.

Jay tries to look around, wondering on why he's here alone. And most definitely on how to get out of here as it's getting suffocating now that there's no single sight of human being that he can find.

But at the same time, he's fascinated with his surrounding, of this place. He had never been to any place akin to this one, thus it is a new experience.