MASKS

chapter two

Percy

If it's pain I know all about it. The feeling of relief after it's over, the fear of when It will come back, the feeling of despair that comes while wrapping the bandages. All that I've felt. I've felt abuse in almost every form; physical, mental and emotional. My body is so in tune with it I don't think it knows anything else. The feeling of nothingness the emptiness when everything is over and you ask yourself if this is what you're worth if this is all you amount to and the answer becomes yes so many times you start forgetting you're supposed to say no.

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When I was four years old my mum married a jerk I was smart enough to see that she didn't love him so I knew there had to be another reason and it had to be a good one because Gabe Ugliano was so far out my mum's league they could be considered as different games.

I was five and a half the first time I saw and heard Gabe hit my mum, I knew I couldn't let it happen again, her whimpering and screams were enough to scar me so I waited until mum went to work and gathered all my courage and went up to the walrus.

"Why do you do it?" I'd asked my voice quiet but strong, I walked directly in front of him and looked him straight in the eyes and asked him. He looked at me and without care said it was because he could and I kept pushing and pushing and so he hit me and I continued I called him weak and he hit me harder then I called him helpless, useless, a coward and the hits got harder and heavier but I took it, I took all of it until he couldn't do anything else. Then I leaned on the wall with more than a few broken bones and more than a few bleeding cuts.

"That feeling that you feel: that goodness," I said pausing to take a breath, "You could have it every day if you want, you could feel it whenever you feel like if you leave my mum alone." He looked interested and a part of me registered that only a monster can feel that good from doing something so evil to a child but I pushed on 'for mum' I reminded myself," you could hit me with everything you got, I won't tell mum, I won't tell the police, I'll hide it from everyone if you leave her alone."

Upside he left mum alone, downside I got my share of beatings, he called them gifts, mum's share and any other frustrations he had. But that night when I went to bed, I never felt so good, never felt accomplished in that way, that high of being a good person felt so nice I decided to never let it go. I'll never be a monster or be selfish, I'll never be Gabe. I decided I'd help everyone I can so I hid the pain I donned a mask and let only the good shine through, I kept the shadows back and let my light touch, everyone, it would and that kept me going.

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