Just Give Me A Reason

2: Lost

Standing in a dark, trashed, and lifeless alleyway he was trying to look deep inside himself. To find his inner core. But he saw nothing. He was empty. He was a montser.

"What did I do to deserve this?" He questioned lookin up at the navy blue night sky.

Growling, he picked up the nearest trash can and launched it against the side of a crimson brick building.

--Back To The Lair--

"HE TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF!" Michelangelo desperatley screamed running into the lair.

Leonardo and Donatello rushed to their little brother.

"WHAT!" Donnie screeched glaring at Leo.

Leo slowly started to back up. "W-why would he do that?"

Mikey sighed glaring at his clueless brother. "Really Leo? He tried to kill himself because YOU asked him why he was still here! YOU told him to leave..."

Opening his ShellCell, Leo dialed Raphael's number. It rang, and rang, and rang. Hanging up, Leo closes his eyes. It was his fault. His fault that Raphael felt unwanted.

"I'll be back.." Leo whispered before heading out. "If he comes home before I find him, call me."

The two youngest brother's nodded their head.

-- With Leo --

Leo aggressively tore through the streets searching everywhere for his depressed brother. He wasn't sure where his brother could be. Usually when he was in lesser moods, he'd rough up the Purple Dragons.

"Where are you..." Leo sighed hoping his brother didn't try anything stupid again. He walked down an alley way and observed all the tossed items. "Raph." He stated before following the torn path.

Minutes went by and he was slowly giving up when he saw one of his brother's Sai's. He carefully picked it up. Looking before him, he noticed his brother's Shell Cell. Gritting his teeth, he tore through the trash with his katana blades hoping to reveal a red clad turtle. But instead...there was nothing but a small blood puddle that soon soaked into the ground staining it.

Slowly backing up, tears began to flow down his cheeks. He had to call home and warn the others.

"Hello? Donnie...Raphael is gone. He's disappeared. I don't know where he is. If he's hurt. The only thing I could find was his blood, a sai, and his shell cell. I'm on my way home. You will NOT tell Master Splinter anything until I arrive. And as for Mikey..." Leo sighed. "He must be right beside you with his face pressed against the other side of the phone. Just...take him to your lab and calm him down."

The scared turtle trudged towards the secret lair. Upon arrival he headed straight for his Sensei's room.

"Father?" He questioned before walking in and knealing down. "I have...horrible news."

Master Splinter poured some tea into a small chipped cup. "Go on, my son."

Sighing, Leonardo prepared himself. "Raphael and I had gotten into an altercation. I said some things...I...I didn't mean. Now he's gone. I don't know where he went. I went looking for him, and I found his blood, a sai, and his cell shell. I didn't find him or any clues as to what happened sensei..I'm sorry."

"Rather than beating yourself up...go to your brothers. And find a way to find him. We can not give up nor loose hope."

Leo bowed before leaving. He entered the living room where Mikey glared at him with a burning hatred.

"THIS IS YOUR FAULT!" Mikey yelled point his green finger at the oldest.

"I...know..." Leo replied with his head down. "We gotta find him...I gotta find him..."