When giving family members hugs, remember that it is important to say, "I love you." Never what you really feel at that time...
I want to die
When its night time and everything feels heavier and your brain has just come alive, remember that its time to sleep, you need to turn your lights out so they don't come in.
I want to scream
When you're out in public, you must, always smile, you cant make friends if you're not nice and you drag down the mood when you're sad.
I'm in pain
When morning comes, you must always leave your room. Remember, they are watching you.
I'm so tired
These are the rules that I use to live my life, after death.
The day he died was sunny. Although everyone seemed happy that day, everything felt sluggish, like the calm before the storm where you hold your breath because you know if you were to breathe out, life would come crashing down and it would hit you with something so devastating that you could never recover.
I breathed out.
Nothing can ever be the same as it was before but truly, nothing really changed. I still wake up everyday and smile to everyone, maintain my conversations, prepare meals that I won't eat and turn off my lights when I can't sleep.
No one knows how much pain I'm in but, to be fair, the pain didn't start the day he died. I am a master of hiding myself, to the point that not even I know who I truly am. I don't know whether the smiles I use when I'm on the verge of tears are real, or if I truly care about anyone or anything. I don't even know if it's that I want to die or I just want to be happy.
Sadness is like a black hole, once you go in, you can never come back out.
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Life After Death
RomanceSo.. I'm going to try and write this story, I do hope you enjoy.. About a person who loses all hope in life and can do nothing except wish for death whilst following along with the monotony of life. - this will probably turn into some sort of romanc...
