Unexpected love

~hurt

I stood getting ready.

I felt a bit broken inside.

It wasn't my marriage, but it felt like a loss even though I still had both my parents.

It hurt me.

I applied mascara to my lashes trying hard to stay strong. I need to.

I wore:

I also chose some silver heels and I curled my hair and put some silver clips in.

——

I walked into the restaurant, scanning the room for Adi. When I noticed her I walked up to her with a smile.

She already had ordered some cocktails to our table.

I sat down with her.

——

The night passed quickly.

We had eaten and now we're sat at the restaurant bar having some more drinks.

'A friend is having a party tonight, should we go.'

I thought about it for a moment.

'Sure' I said with a smile.

I could do with some fun.

——.

We turned up at the party in a tall building.

It was the top floor.

The elevator went straight to the apartment.

We walked in and the music was loud, the air smelt of vodka and there were people dancing everywhere.

This isn't normally my scene but oh well.

We walked and went and got a few drinks and talked to a few people.

——

The night passed quite slowly.

I had moved on to water now, I just wasn't in the mood anymore.

I wanted to leave, I just wanted to see Massimo, but I had no idea where he was.

Nothing at home feels the same anymore. I feel like he is my home now.

Being here feels like the old me. I feel distant from her now.

I stood up to go get some more water and I saw familiar face.

It was Marco with his hands all over a blonde bitch in a red dress.

My heart sank.

He looked around laughing and his eyes fell on me.

I shook my head and looked at his hands still on her and he quickly moved them.

I turned around and walked away.

I got to the elevator and pressed the button and the doors opened.

I got in quickly but he ran and got in too.

I couldn't look at him.

I know that I've been with Massimo so I've cheated too but it wasn't my intention. I've know this boy since I was a teen, he was my first love so it does hurt.

He was distant from me for so long before I met Massimo but I was in denial. I know he was cheating for years but I wouldn't accept it.

'She's not the first one is she.' I said with so much hurt in my voice.

He looked at me not knowing what to say.

I laughed and that made him confused.

'I have never ever done anything to you Marco, I loved you! And all you do back is fuck some blonde bitch, how cliche.'

I shook my head.

'I wonder how many there where. How many you had behind my back for years. I never wanted to accept it because I loved you!' My voice broke with pain.

I was more hurt of the fact that we have lost our friendship. Our whole relationship was more of a friendship but what he done to me shows that he never cared.

The doors opened and I quickly ran out.

I was feeling too much emotion at this point.

I walked across the room and then my eyes caught with someone's.

Massimos.

He tried walking to me but I walked backwards.

'No, get away from me.'

'Sofia!' Marco shouted following me.

I looked between them both.

I covered my face overwhelmed.

'I can't take this!' I cried.

'Please Sofia I'm so sorry, I love you!'  Marco said and tried hugging me but quickly got ripped away from me by Massimo.

'Fucking touch her again I dare you.' He said throwing him to the ground without difficulty and then standing in front of me.

'Who is he. What the fuck. Did you fuck him sofia.' Marco said.

I walked in front of Massimo.

'Like you have any fucking right to know anything you asshole! Your a piece of shit and I hope you fucking rot.'

I ran away from them both and out into the street.

I don't know where I was going but I just needed to get away.

My breathing was fast and it was getting harder to breathe. My hands were shaking and it was so hard to focus.

I knew it was a panic attack. It used to happen to me often when I got overwhelmed but the is the first one in so long.

I almost fell to the floor in tears when I felt someone wrap their arms around me and pull me to their chest.

I knew it was Massimo. I could smell his cologne.

I just cried into his chest while panicking because I couldn't breathe.

He put his hand on my head.

'Shhh okay Sofia.'

He hugged me so tightly not letting go. It comforted me a lot.

I closed my eyes tightly and tried to get my breathing back.

When I did I started to calm down.

I pulled away and pushed him away.

'Where the fuck were you Massimo, you just left? Didn't say bye to me then you fucking show up like nothing happened.'

I looked at him hurt.

He looked down.

'I'm sorry...'

'Oh your sorry are you.'

I started to walk away but turned around and started to walk back.

'I've been let down 3 times today! They were all by men, my father, the person I was in love with for 13 years and you. It fucking hurts.'

I looked him in the eyes before walking away.

I had enough for one night.