*my mermaid shifting journal

creatures?

Its me lori, i've been thinking ALOT and theres alot of things i care about on land,I want to be a half mer, but will i ever just snap? And want to be in the ocean forever? I love so much here so... I don't know what to do, i was thinking i could be a water nymph(sorry if i spelled that wrong) or something connected to the ocean... i dont know i would loveee to be a mermaid ,but the PNR scares me, i think mabe i'm not meant to be a mermaid ,if i'm not willing to give up land i must not be worthy of a tail ,I just wanna be free... i don't want it to corrupt my land life. The mermaid half of me wants to swim sing explore and be in peace...the human half wants to dress like a pastel goth or pirate, make tiktoks ,and listen to edgy music... i'm trying to pick a side... no matter what tho i definetly dont wanna be human anymore...  i was thinking of becoming a selkie if possible ,being a water nymth would be cool. I really hope this works out, ill do some reaserch on creatures that i may be able to become ,if not ill do reality shifting,

 sencerily your strange mythic almost 13 year old girl...

~lori~