Like We Used To | J.JK

Chapter 6

you sighed for the second time of the day ''It's not 12'' you pushed your hair to the back in between your fingers. How did 6x6 became 12, this guy beside you, I mean Taehyung he has a brain but he is way too lazy to use it.  Well since  the cutting thing, they always joined you even you don't asked them , they just wait at where you jumped then they will run with you. Till it  you guys became used to it, but you helped them with their studies, while they help you to find good places to take a breath, or should you say cutting classes. The teachers wondered too, how you guys gets a passed grade you have always the highest of course,  well teamwork makes the dreamwork right? ''x+y = xy'' Jimin teaches as well, but he is not sure about this atleast he helps ''then x squared + y is = xxy?'' facepalmed and Yugyeom offered a high five to Taehyung, the drummer boy believes he gets the  answer right. Two dumbos joined together, dumbos x squared,  Yoongi has to chuckle for that ''Do you even know the answer hyung?''  and all of your eyes looked at the guy ''I don't , I didn't became in charge of history to teach x and y '' Yoongi answered, your group of friends have assigned subjects and help each other, for you it's math, as for Yoongi it's history, for Jungkook it's the coverage of arts, music and p.e  and health 4 in one,  for Jimin is science , while Taehyung and Yugyeom are  assigned in foods, and being cute dorky in the group.  You teach the guys while they listen Jungkook steal glances from you, the book is his hiding thing, he hides his face pretending he reads but his ears is on yours, he love your voice, and by the way you teach the two guys, he can hear it all, no wonder why he got the second highest points in math.  ''Jk.'' Jimin kicked his toe under the table, and his eyes shifted on Jimin's  ''Hyung, I'm reading.'' he says and Jimin did a are you freaking kidding me? face ''is reading a upside down book the newest trend?'' Jungkook quickly flip his book, act cool nothing but cool specially in front of you. ''Is it?'' Yugyeom teases while you are busy teaching Taehyung ''That's called reading.'' Jimin refers to Yoongi who is busy reading about the events in 17 th century it's interesting for him ''reading is way way different in staring your crush.'' Yugyeom nodded at Jimin's statement.  100 % agree  Mr. Park , Jungkook scoffed, you smiled when Taehyung got the final answer , closing the book after you did a high five with him. ''Y/n, is not my crush, she's not even close  to my type.'' you heard it all and your eyes is on his, he just denied his feelings, that's why he is being a hella defensive. Suddenly the air becomes awkward ''what the hell?'' Taehyung mouthed and your eyes is on the guy in front of you ''no worries the feeling is mutual.'' you let out but why does it feel like it pierced his and your heart? ''I'll go ahead.'' You stand up taking the book with you. Yoongi give Taehyung a cue to follow you, and he did. ''is that really  how you feel?'' Yoongi asked Jungkook who is now silent.  ''denying won't make things better., Jungkook'' he added eyes on his book. Jungkook sighed what shit did he just put himself into?....

Six hundred four thousand eight hundred seconds, ten thousand  eighty minutes, and a hundred sixty four hours, seven days exactly seven days, and you've been ignoring him and yes he's been counting the time he spent without you . You still go with them, but everything turn awkward whenever you avoid Jungkook. You both said the feeling is mutual , then why are you avoiding each other like there is something hurting the both of you, yes you've never had a solo time together, when ever you and him meet it's merely because of  they bond with you, but every time you are with them, his heart always flutters, at first it was just he thinks your cute, the next day he thinks your beautiful, the next next day he started to love your smile, the next next next day he love to hear your laughed the next next next  day, he misses your voice, till he end up missing you.  He too don't how you do things to him,  why are you doing this to him? how can you do it just like that.

''Bye'' you waved your hands at them, of course only to the four guys. You feel awkward with Jungkook too, you believe it's better to ignore each other than have a awkward conversation with him. 

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''Are you okay?'' you asked as soon you entered Hoseok's room, there he is lying on his bed being the best actor he could be, he looks so sick and pale. This guy hella deserve a Oscars.  ''I'm fine.'' he answered reaching for your hand making you surprised ''I'm sorry for worrying you.'' you nodded your head reaching his hand  ''I'm sorry for everything y/n.'' he let out suddenly feeling teary now, ''For everything, I'll be better.'' he added  you having this weak heart for him took it. You wonder too, why does your brain and body acts like shit whenever he reaches for you.  

''can you give me a chance?''

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 I don't know if I will continue this book anymore, like should I just unpublish this? I'm having a second thoughts...

What should I do?

UGH Writers block!