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TWENTY-THREE | BTS

"SELFISH"

JIMIN HAS ALWAYS loved his best friends. But he didn't tell anyone since he thought it was selfish to love six people at once.

He just been told all of his live that he was selfless and always thinking about others before himself. So he can't think about himself now.

That's his label, he is the caring one: never caring about himself so why start now? He thought.

Jimin went to his room and started to read then soon enough went in his phone, talking to his friends. He smiled, feeling happy and forgetting about his 'label'.

The Seven Gays🥺

Joonie💕: y'all up for the movies? Wanted to watch "Encanto".

Tae💜: YES! I always wanted to see that. Looks so good!

Kookie💞: disney nerds 😭

Tae💜: marvel nerd 😤

Jinnie💗: shut up, and yes let's go watch it this weekend!

Jimin: yes! I wanted to see it!

Kookie💞: yes on Saturday, let's listen to Jimin's idea. This weekend.

Jinnie💗: but I came up with it :(

Tae💜: yes Jiminie!

Joonie💕: what a good idea Jiminie!!

Jimin smiled, even if it was Jin's idea. The boy did blush as they were praising him.

No, this is selfish Jimin. This isn't you.

Jimin: it was Jin hyung's idea!

Jimin went off of his phone and felt excited to watch the Disney movie.

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Who know Jimin would cry this much. He never related so much to the movie. Feeling pressured to keep a label that he didn't didn't like.

He felt like he had to hide his cries, even if his friends were crying since it was a sad movie. But he thought they would be asking why is he crying.

"That's such a good movie. But go it was sad." Tsehying said, wiping his tears. Jimin came and hugged him.

He was the caring I. Yes he loves hugging people but now he feels like he has to hug people who are sad.

But thankfully he loves his six friends so he doesn't care about his label.

Soon they made it home, well Jungkook's home as it was bugger than the others.

Soon they made it to the couch and sighed in relief. They soon cuddled each other.

Most fell asleep apart from Jimin. He slowly got out if the cuddle and went upstairs to the bathroom.

He stared at the mirror and seen himself. He looked tired and exhausted. Tired from the labels. Tired of everything. He wished he ask his friends out. He wished he had thr confidence but he doesn't, and never will.

"I'll just be the caring friends. The one who is always there. That's all I will be." Jimin sighed, soon tears fell.

He stayed in the bathroom all night. But of course at 7am he has to go back they they won't be suspicious of anything. He got back snd snuggled against Taehyung. Going to sleep. And he had a good sleep. Didn't wake up until 3pm.

The others let him since Jimin was always like that to them. Waking up at 3 or 4pm but they never thought why he does that. Maybe they should've.

Soon Jimin woke up. Alone. He hated that feeling, so much. He genuinely thought that all left when really they were playing games in the living room.

I mean it's their goose too so why would they leave? As yes, Jimin overthinks the worse.

Jimin didn't want to go down. Be hears them having fun so why ruin it? He stays in the room laying on the soft pillows. Crying.

He cried so much that he wasn't aware of someone peeking through the door. Hearing and seeing it all. Soon that make rush down to alert the others. That male was Namjoon.

They rushed up qnd knocked on the door.

"Yeah." He sounded normal yet broken. It was heartbreaking to hear.

Soon they walked in and sees Jimin laying there, flushed.

"Mimi, what's wrong?" Jin was the first to ask.

He came forward and hugged the boy as he cried once more.

"I'mnotgoodenough." Jimin said quickly.

But when then they understood and they all hugged it all.

"You qre always good enough. Always. It's not the same without you. You make a difference min. You always have." Taehyung said but Jimin can't believe him.

"You sound like you were having fun without me." Jimin said with a hard sniff.

"It may sound like it. But we were missing you. We thought you were still asleep snd Yoongi wanted to see you but we stopped him since we didn't want to interrupt your beauty sleep. We always think about you." Jungkook said.

And with that Jimin cried once more.

He felt loved, felt worth, felt wanted, felt included, and most of all, he felt seen.

The End

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A/N - been working on this for fucking ages, not going to lie.

But I like writing about my experience with a twist but there isn't any twist except from putting the members names instead of my own or my family.

But Jimin in this oneshot is me. Yes it's a mess but I am a full on mess.

Ao that's my oneshot and more to come. Sorey for the long wait I had so much to write qnd still have more. Just needs more time. It's hard writing one chapter of a story.

Also I finally figured out what I esnt to do when I knave achoo about time I want to do child care since I wsmt to try plus I love kids.

Off topic but it's been awhile since I used my phone to write, always used my tablet. Missed writing on my phone.

Now I shall go.

Stay healthy, stay safe, stay kind to others and yourself, and stay loving yourself.

I purple you all!
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~you nice, keep going.~ - Park Jimin 💛 (2018)