the change

chapter eighteen

Juuzou POV

they all finally left, but it's fun, it's fun to hang out with them.

I'm kinda sad because i can't remember my past, but since heard their memories it makes me don't want my memory back.

I don't want to remember such as a traumatic past, i rather focused on my future.

I'm chilling on the sofa, but i remember earlier.

Shuichi is different, he is really different, also i know that he said was a lie earlier.

Since i'm a lier, i'm not that stupid, i know who's lying or not, that's one of my specialty.

That's why i already know who is the mastermind in the first place.

Now that shuichi and i are alone in this apartment, it's making me feel trapped.

i don't know why, but it seems like i'm used to this, i have mixed emotions.

But i'm just going to ignore it now, since i'm not going to stay here forever, i just have day off.

I'm going back to work and try to avoid shuichi.

Maybe i can escape this guts i'm feeling, but why now, why do i feel like inside the cage?.

Why didn't i feel this when we're inside the game?

Why didn't i feel this 2 years ago when we met again.

I also didn't feel this even where i fought the twin.

But i feel it now, if i stay here little longer i will permanently locked in a cage.

With no way out, being chained and being looked out by an owner.

But, it's also feel relaxed, and safe?... Why am i safe?. This world is full of danger.

You didn't know that for the next seconds is your last breath.

So some people said, if you don't want to get into worst danger, just be friend the danger.

"....zuya"

I get into the real world and i saw shuichi looking down at me, and i'm just chilling, laying down on the couch.

"Are you okay? You're zoning out, i call your name 5 times"

"Oh, yes i'm okay"

He have many emotions on that, careless, worried, obsessed.

I will really going to ignore him if my day off is done.

Also i'm going to cut my relationship with everyone. I'm just going to focus on CCG and mr. Shinohara.

I have to protect him no matter what, he's the only person who understand and stay beside me.

I don't know how many years they will discover me again.

Since CCG didn't do interviews and they didn't want an information to get out.

I'm just going to leave when he's sleeping, they might this this is an selfish decision.