Kitty sighs as she sits on her bed holding her iPad.'stupid writer's block' she thinks to herself and sets down her iPad on her chest and lays down on her pillow. She loved writing but she just had no fans. Sure, she had 72+ followers on WattPad, but she never sees any comment on her works. Her most updated book has a lot of VEIWS, but no votes or comments. 'Was it my crappy starters?' She wonders. She sighs again. 'Maybe I really don't have any fans. Maybe they just follow because they are desperate for entertainment.' She stares at her open pencil case and crappy drawings at her homework and drawing desk. 'I don't think I have any potential or success.' Tears form slowly in her eyes and fall down her cheek. She turns on her Spotify and listens to her favorite playlist. She falls into a sad dream.
She was walking down the hallways at school holding her stack of books. Her best friend bumps into her with a evil smirk on her face as she watches Kitty fall to the ground. "Gamer... Why?" She says as she picks up her books. Kitty trembles as she hears everyone around her gossiping. She hears every word behind their hands. "Whoa, did she fall to THAT?" "I know, the weakling can't even hear the teacher when she sits in the front of the room!" "Epic fail." "It's not even epic, she is not worth our conversations!" Kitty starts trembling more. No one is helping her and kicking her books around and laughing. Not even her close friend Nicole is helping her poor soul. She starts crying and crying..everything is fading away, away, away...
Kitty wakes up in her bedroom, realizing that she was dreaming. But she feels as if it was reality. Tears fall from her eyes as she realizes that the people gossiping in her dream were right. She was useless, weak, and she couldn't even write a chapter about her favorite anime. That's another reason why she doesn't feel welcomed, her classmates make fun of her favorite characters and animes. At school it's from the boys. " DESPAIR BLOOD DESPAIR DESPAIR." From the girls, " anime sucks! It's so stupid!" She felt lucky to even have 2 friends. (Gamergirl512 + NicoleHoderny 💗) She cries harder as she feels more consumed by sadness and pain. She doesn't even want to live anymore. She feels so unwelcomed and unloved that she just doesn't appear at school for a while. "Hey Gamer, what's up with Kitty?" A girl asks Gamer. "Dunno, she wouldn't reply to my messages online." Gamer starts to tremble as she recalls a memory online. 'I'm depressed' Kitty types as a river of tears falls onto her bedsheets. 'No, don't do that to yourself!' Later, Kitty was feeling better, like she was being sewn back together. But all that healing stopped a few months later. She got worse than before. Gamer puts her head on her desk to hide her worried face. "G-gamer? What's wrong?" The girl taps gamer's shoulder. "I-I'm worried. She left only one message for me on WattPad" "what?" " 'Tell everyone that I'm sorry I am a outcast and I'll be gone before they can say 'Anime sucks' " "what do you think it means?" The other girl starts to realize what's happening.
The speakers turn on "will the 3rd floor please go to the lecture hall"
They all get their coats and walk to the Lecture Hall. (Oh my gosh guys I'm sorry I meant this to be a message about ghost readers but I got bored and fell into darkness) The principal is looking worried more than usual. The projector is set up on a picture of KataliaKitty smiling and in white text 'KataliaKitty May 6 - March 25' and unsteady mumbles come from around the room. Only Gamer has the clear vision of what's up. She hopes with all her heart this was one of Kitty's pranks. 'No... She wouldn't...' She reassures herself. "May I have your attention please." The principal calls out. The rooms falls to a unsettling silence. "Who here has heard of or met KataliaKitty?" All of Kitty's grade and a few other students raise their hands. "Thank you,for those who haven't heard of her, please look at the projector." The projector displays a different picture, on which was her personality and backstory.
'Kitty was a fun-loving bubbly girl, she loved to wright and draw. She was in first honors and played Trombone.'
'She was born on May 6 and had a little sister. She was loved by her family very much' the backstory went on for a full page. "Why do we bring Kitty up? Why did we interrupt class?" The principal began to tremor and his voice shake.
A new, horrifying picture was now on the projector. A girl was hanging in her bedroom with a spilled bottle of pills on her bed along with a note, and a fallen stool on the ground.
It wasn't any girl.
Kitty.
A few screams and lots of gasps went through the room.
Gamer was staring blankly at the picture.
Surely, she was having a nightmare.
Surely...
Gamer passed out onto a close friend's shoulder.
"UMMM, gamer?"
" Kitty committed suicide." The principal uttered.
The room fell silent.
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This was originally a story about ghost readers then my depression kinda attacked.
1. This is still about ghost readers, partially.
2. This is a message to my friends Gamergirl512 and NicoleHoderny about my depression, YEP, NICCI, I'm depressed. And YEP, gamer, the healing was for nothing. It came back stronger. It's not going down without a long hard fight.
3. Thank you all for any small support you give! Even a single vote on one of my books makes me feel great! A comment, WHAT?!
4. Sorry If I made you cry
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Gamer, if this really happened, how would you react?
No seriously, just imagine hearing the news.
Would you try to forget me?
Would you commit suicide?
Tell me
