Take my hand|cs

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Joshua could've sworn that it had been hours even though it must've only been a few minutes. He wanted to get out and run, find Seungcheol wherever he is and not let him do something stupid to save him. But he waited.

He waited until the screams started to die down, carefully listening to make sure none of them sounded even close to Seungcheol's voice. It had been around 30 minutes when he stepped out of the room.

"Cheol?" He called out wearily, trying not to step on any of the bodies littered on the floor and there were a lot. He didn't have to walk far until he saw a familiar mass groaning on the ground with blood pooling around him.

"Oh my god Sehun-ah!?" Joshua was quick to rush himself closer to Sehun before pulling him onto his lap. "Hey, stay with me. Don't you dare die!" Joshua sobbed not wanting to lose him. "You're safe, that's all I wa-wanted" Sehun spoke in a strained voice as he caressed Joshua's face with his bloody hand. "I know I could've been much better to you, I just didn't know how" Sehun apologised as Joshua shook his head vigorously.

"Don't hate me, I'm sorry baby" Joshua noticed how Sehun's voice had lowered an octave making the small hairs on his skin stand up in fear. "No I don't hate you, stop apologising" Joshua hated how he kept thinking about Seungcheol in the back of his mind, was he okay? He just wanted to know if he was okay but he couldn't leave Sehun.

"I re-really do love you Joshua Hong..." Sehun smiled weakly as he fell limp in Joshua's arms. The tears wouldn't stop as he placed a kiss on Sehun's forhead before softly shutting his eyes. "I forgive you" Joshua mumbled against Sehun's forehead hoping he heard him wherever he was now.

"Cheol!" Joshua screamed not being able to handle the dread anymore. "Seungcheol please don't leave me!" Joshua was on the verge of hysterics as he ran through the rooms trying to find Seungcheol.

His breath hitched as soon as he saw Kkuma already infront of his room waiting for him, Joshua for a moment forgot that Kkuma had gotten out with him. He should've known this was the first place to check like Kkuma did.

His eyes widened at the dried blood on Kkuma's white fur, running to his room as fast as his feet would take him. Joshua stopped abruptly as he saw a body near the door and his head turned away instinctively just for a second.

He finally gathered himself as he turned the head to find Kai. Kkuma had ran towards the bed making Joshua turn his attention towards the direction of his bed for the first time since he came into the room.

"Seungcheol..." Joshua felt like everything around him stopped as he saw Seungcheol laying against the bottom of his bed, too still for his liking.

"No. You don't get to die on me Choi Seungcheol" Joshua lifted Seungcheol's blood stained shirt up to see a gash that he could only make out to be a bullet wound.

He quickly grabbed a towel from the bathroom before trying to tie it around the wound. He continued to wipe his tears as he stayed determined in stopping the bleeding.

"I refuse to believe you're gone, I won't let you!" Joshua tried to do whatever he could think of. He wasn't sure if he was doing CPR right as he alternated between giving him oxygen and pumping his heart in a certain rhythm.

"Please! I didn't even get to tell you how much I love you! How much I love being held by you and annoying you. How I feel safe by just hearing your name, how I wait every day to just see you. You can't leave me, you're all I have left, I love you so much" Joshua said in a choked sob as he placed his lips on Seungcheol's now pale ones.

He was very aware of his own tears decorating Seungcheol's cheek but he didn't care. He didn't know how long it had been until he realised his lips weren't the only ones that were moving.

Joshua's eyes widened as he moved away to look at Seungcheol who still had his eyes closed as he kissed Joshua. "Tell me how much you love me again" Seungcheol gave a ghost of a smirk to Joshua as he pulled him into a hug.

"You dick, I thought you died" Joshua clutched onto Seungcheol's ripped shirt, letting himself calm down. "I still might, get Sehun's phone from his office and call Dr Wonwoo. We should find Sehun too" Seungcheol spoke in a calculated manner even though he was clearly in pain.

"Cheol-ah...Sehun's gone" Joshua sobbed harder as Seungcheol's eyebrows creased. "What-" Joshua let himself fall back into the hug as Seungcheol caressed his hair in a way to comfort him.

"It'll all be alright, I promise"