IM HERE TO START WITH A JOURNEY OF A PREGNANT WOMEN WHO IS BATTLING WITH HER OWN LIFE.... SHE IS HERE TO TELL THE WORLD THE PAIN SHE IS BEARING...COMPLAINING THE WORLD THAT THIS LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS A HAPPY JOURNEY... THIS IS HER STORY A STORY OF PRE...
This chapter has not been proofread... spare me if there is any spelling or grammatical mistakes
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There a man was sitting on the floor, his hands covered with blood, his hands were shivering remembering the past few moments, his body was shaking, it was shaking with fear, fear of loosing them, loosing his own family. Tears which he had hidden from the world were about to spill, fear and anxiety were ruling his body, her innocent face flashed in front of his eyes, her small plump pregnant form flashed in front of his eyes and then his eyes went to his hand... Blood!!!! Blood!!!!! Tears fell from his eyes, his small whimper turned into loud sob, his loud sob resonated in the entire hospital wing.
He remembered the day she told him that she was pregnant!! Every woman out there would have been on cloud nine to share such an amazing news with their life partner but his wife!!! he only saw fear, those big doe eyes held fear in them, her voice shattering in anxiety... How unlucky she was to get a bastard like him in the form of her husband who instead of celebrating the happiness of his fatherhood and there was busy thinking to get rid of the gift he was bestowed with...
He remembered the day of her first sonogram... she had that brightest smile on her face when she held it in her hands, she was so enthusiastic in showing it everyone in the family but what he did!!! He just burnt her entire report!!! Yes he burnt them in his anger!!!! That was the day.. her face which had brightest smile in the morning was drowned in tears and had slept on the floor hugging the burnt ashes in the night!!!
He remembered the day when they were sleeping it was midnight and he heard her loud sob, he didn't know why she was crying, he was disturbed his sleep was important he had early morning meeting to attend, anger rose his body without thinking anything he held her hands harshly pulling her out of the bed without even hearing her explanation he just threw her out of his room!! She begged them him to listen to her, she just her stomach was paining, her back was aching!!! Everything felt deaf to his ears!!! Next day he saw her sleeping on the floor leaning to the wall her one hand on her bump clutching on it protectively and other laying freely.
He chocked on his tears
WHAT HAD HE DONE!!!!
Was there a day he made her feel pregnant??? Was there a day he had not seen fear in her face during the entire preganacy?? Was there a day she slept without crying in the entire pregnant phase??
AND THE ANSWER IS NO!!!!!
"Yeh meine kya kar diya he, yeh kya kar diya meine!!!!! Voh ek din bii kush nahi rahi!!! Voh ek din bii bina rohe soi nahi he!!! voh mera koon tha, meine kia tha usko, meri galthi thi inn sab meh!!! Lekin meine kya kia sabh kuch uske sar par dal diya!!! Kitni kush thi jab voh pehle din mere dulan banke ghar aaithi... aur vahi uske kushiyo ka aakri din bangaya!!! Mein kese bool gaya ki voh sab kuch chodh ke mere liyhe aaithi, kyse bool gaya ki mera ghar aur yeh mohal uske liyhe bilkul naya he!!! kyse bool ki usse kush rakna mere zimmedari thi jese voh mujhe kush rakh rahi thi??? Kyse bool gaya kii voh mere koon ko apne godh mein parvarish kar rahi he??? mein kyse!!!!!!"
He pulled his hairs crying his heart out.😥
He didn't deserve them, he didn't deserve her, he didn't deserve his baby.
He wanted to hurt himself, he wanted punish himself, he deserved every pain in this world but what was happening!!! Here it was them suffering, his world was suffer, his family is in pain, it was their blood in his hand, her blood.
His cry didn't stop and he knew it want until he see them perfect in front him... The arrogance, the ego, the masculinity he was proud of was broken into pieces, today he was kneeling on the floor in front of the operation theatre crying begging his lord to protect them, protect his world, his jannat.
He wanted to hold her, he wanted to embrace her, he wanted to sooth himself by kissing her, he wanted to be her HUSBAND which had failed miserably...
His eyes were craving to look into those big innocent doe eyes, her fresh coco butter fragrance, her small yet youngbeautiful frame, her silent yet soothing voice, his heart craved for her, for them, for their love.
Soon he saw doctor coming out of the OT, he rushed towards her with heavily beating heart...
"Doctor..... kyse he dono???"
Doctor looked at the man who she saw only once in her patient's entire pregnancy phase, she knew at the first glance at the man in front of her that the couple were not the ones, they were not enjoying the phase of pregnancy, her patients eyes always craved for his attention, for his care and for the love towards their child. But look at the irony!!! today he is here with his eyes yearning to see her and his child but she was sleeping in the OT without the knowledge of this world, a sad smile formed on her face.
"Sorry Mr. Sheikh, i dont think she will make up" she patted his shoulder and moved away.
She wanted to yell at him, make him feel guilty but when she saw his eyes, she knew he was always a living corpse with no strength left within him to take any wild blow.
His entire world collapsed, he fell on his knees, tears spilled out of his eyes, he sat there clutching his head crying his heart out, loud sob echoed the hospital wing, he lost her, he lost his wife, he lost his hope, he lost his jannat.
"Ya Allah!!! yeh saza mujhse bardhash nahi ho rahi, mein mar jaunga, mere dam gutt raha he, Allah unhe mujhse math chino, mein nahi reh saktha un dono ke bina!!! haa meine galthiya ki he, haa mein huu unke gunegaar, lekin esa saza math do!!! unhe mujhse door math karo!!! Khuda mera ek sun looo!!!!"
TODAY HE LOST HIS EVERYTHING, LITERALLY EVERYTHING!!!!💔
ओह! यह छवि हमारे सामग्री दिशानिर्देशों का पालन नहीं करती है। प्रकाशन जारी रखने के लिए, कृपया इसे हटा दें या कोई भिन्न छवि अपलोड करें।
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Hey guys, its just a small sneakpeek... i dont know how it turned out...
It is a small token of love for my readers... I felt touched when you guys supported me with my studies.. for my life, many even blessed me with their heart, inshallah i hope i fulfill my dreams very soon. Thank you all for understanding me and supporting me.
One more thing i would like to share is that one of my reader personally texted me and wanted me to make a separate book on the ONE SHOT OF SIDNAAZ which i had written few days back and i had published it in both my stories, she told me she wants me to continue on that book but i could not do it... so instead she suggested me too continue with one shots... and i found that idea acceptable... even she said she is gonna help me with my stories as i m busy with my studies.... So guys i will post that chapter there in the new book and will write one shots when ever im free, you guys are also welcome to give me any ideas or theme on the story and it will be under you guys name... So hoping it will turn out good.
My dear friend @lovemylife760 for such an amazing idea and this books entire credit goes to her❤
Tomorrow im going back to my hostel and will be back next month till then keep reading and supporting.
