YB male reader x peter (17+) (Ongoing Story)

chapter 9: memories

TK pov:
It had been about a week now, and still no sign of Y/N. Neither Lucy nor Don had seen or heard anything on his whereabouts, and even worse no one had called the number i placed in our news segment yet..plus me and lucy (mostly me..) were still paying it off, ugh..

I didn't know what to do. I had pretty much tried all the ideas i could on trying to find him..maybe he really was gone for good, i thought dejectedly.

I aimlessly flipped through my socials page, just trying to look for some sort of distraction from all the thoughts when my background flashed onscreen..

Of course..i had set it months ago to the picture me and Y/N had taken together the first day he started work with me at the diner..what a happy day that was.

I remember how Y/N's attitude was happier and more ambitious than ever that day and how we laughed along together like we'd known each other for years..like best pals..god, how I wished from that day on that we'd never leave each others' sides..and look where that went when i was dumb enough to abandon him that night..

Looking at Y/N's pixelated smile on my phone, it was like i was being sucked back into the memory..I could almost feel his small, warm hands held safely in mine again..god, it hurt..it hurt to remember..it hurt to think the next time i might ever see him was at his funeral..

I could feel tears welling in my eyes quickly, like hot cesspools of repressed feelings just waiting to burst out into a full breakdown..

As the tears dripped onto my phone, all i could think of was Y/N..the way he looked at me differently than his friends and everybody at work..the way he was always so touchy and affectionate with me..god, it drove me crazy to be around someone like him without bursting and saying that i wanted to see more of that side from him..

i wanted nothing more than to just hold his hand and look him straight in the eye and say 'would you want to be my boyfriend?'

Too bad i already passed up that opportunity..stupid, stupid.. If i wasn't so insecure and scared of rejection i could've told him months ago, but now he might be gone forever..

We would've been so good together..there's never going to be another guy in my life as good as him.

I didn't seem to notice through my scrambled thoughts, but i had started full on crying at this point, my head now laid in my hands..i loved him so much..but of course I never got to tell him how i felt before he dissapeared..it made me feel so hollow inside, like a big piece of my future involving him had been stolen away..

It made me realize I barely had anything to remember him by..then, i soon found myself scrolling through my messenger app and reminiscing on all the cute little texts he'd sent me over our time together..

"Hey!! Coming 2 work soon, brought us a Lil gift :)"

Hehe..that was the day he'd gone to the gas station and got me and him a case our favorite fizzy soda..we snuck out of work during shift out into the back alley where the garbage cans were and totally od'd on the stuff together..we laughed so much that day..sure, we both got in big trouble but to save his butt, i took the blame..sure, my boss yelled at me a lot, but it was all worth it to see him smile like that..

"Did u remember this weekend? Got a cab, Lucy n me r coming to get u! Won't be the best first pride this year without u :)"

Man, that day was awesome.. It was summer in June and it was Y/N's first pride parade here in town..lucy, as usual showed up drunk, wine in hand, but we still made it to the parade in one peice and had a great time..i remember Y/N bought everyone cheap hot dogs and we ate them on the sidewalk while watching the parade..he was so exited that day..! I was so happy to share that experience with him..