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22- Never Letting Go

The next few days was basically George sitting outside at the meadow, at Clay's grave.

It was growing harder and harder for George. He would barely eat, he just slept and talked all day. He rarely went back to the village.

"I miss my uncle, he's a great guy." George said, looking down at the dirt.

What George didn't know, was that Clay sat beside him, with his arm wrapped around him.

George looked back up into the night sky. He laid down onto his back and stared up at the stars.

He smiled softly and closed his eyes, falling asleep instantly.

Clay laid down beside him and looked up at the sky aswell. He wrapped an arm around George, enjoying the night sky.

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I can't let him go.

Everything I do is with him now.

Even if he is dead

He's still apart of my life

I haven't ate in 2 days

I haven't left Clay

I can't

He needs me

I need him

I feel like ending it

Just killing myself so I can be with him

But he wouldn't want that

I still am on the line

I don't feel alive anymore

I feel dead

I look dead

I sound dead

God I could even be dead!

I don't want to leave him

I love him too much

I can't

I can't

I won't

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I love him

I can say it a million times and still mean it.

He means everything to me

He saved me

He saved my from my parents

My city

From danger

Just to lose him

I lost him

I lost everything

He is my everything

Why do I treat myself like this?

Why do I talk to myself like this?

Why do I still even talk to him?

He can't hear me

Maybe I should just end it

Life would be so much better

Well, after life

I need him

I need his hugs

His kisses

His words

Just his presence comforts me

I need him to hold me in his arms and tell me It'll be alright

I need him to whisper to me comforting words

I need him to hold my hand for comfort

I want him

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George awoke on top of the soft dirt. The sun was only rising, but it was still bright and beautiful.

George sat up and peered over at the sign. A tear rolled down his cheek as he remembered what happened.

"Clay..you probably can't hear me but..I want to commit," George muttered, standing up. He walked closer to the edge of the cliff.

Clay jumped up and ran over to George, wrapping an arm around his waist, stopping his from being able to move. He nuzzled his face into George's back.

He was about step off when he couldn't move. He was stuck in place. He tried and tried to move but couldn't.

He felt a warmth that he hasn't felt in it seems like forever. He finally gave up and collapsed onto the ground.

Clay fell down with George, still hugging him from behind and nuzzling his clothed back.

"I want to see Clay..please.." he begged out.

Clay nuzzled deeper into his back, tightening his grip slightly.

George sighed and laid back, falling against the soft grass.

Clay moved out from behind George and laid down next to him.

I miss Clay

I miss him with everything I have

I just want to see him

Tell him that I love him

And hear him say he loves me back