Secrets And Hidden Feelings (A Harry Potter Story)

Chapter 6

A look of surprise crosses his face. I often wondered if anyone thanked him. Thanked him for what he sacrificed to defeat Voldemort.

"You sacrificed a lot to defeat Voldemort. You saved us all and I can't speak for everyone but am very thankful. Thankful for a lot of reasons." I let a tear slide down my cheek which Harry reaches over and wipes away.

"Dad told me numerous times that if something happened to him it would be at Voldemort's hand. So it was no surprise when I found his body." Tears over take me and Harry brings me into his arms, once more.

"I wish I was there. There to say goodbye. He didn't deserve to die like that." When my tears finally stop I pull away.

"But I am thankful he wasn't alone. That you were with him."

"It always struck me as weird when I told you that, you seemed to have gotten upset."

"I tried to hold my composure. It just made me feel so much better knowing he wasn't alone that the last thing he saw were your eyes. Lily's eyes." He pulls me against him again.

My Dad dying was the hardest thing I ever lived through. Losing my Mom, well one at two really couldn't feel anything but loss. I never really felt grief but with Dad the grief almost consumed me.

"I want to know what happened." I whisper pulling away from him.

"Voldemort happened, Nagini you know that." I shake my head and wipe my face dry.

"I want to know, I need to know. Harry please."

"I don't understand what you're asking me Helena."

"I'm asking for you to let me see. Let me see what you saw that night." His eyes become big and he gets up from the sofa and paces in front of his unlight fireplace.

"You want to see inside my mind."

"Yes."

"I should have known he would teach you how to be an Occlumens."

"Please. I'm asking as a friend. I need to see it."

"And as your friend, as the." He stops. What was he about to say? A million different things go through my mind.

"I can't. No I won't subject you to that. It will only cause you more heartache and I can't do it. I can't add to it. I won't."

"I know you care for me." I say and walk over to him. Taking his hands in mine.

"Please. I need to see this. He was the only Parent I had. My only Family." His green eyes stare into mine. He slowly nods. Still holding his hands in mine I hold them out in front of us.

"Think about that memory. Think really hard. Let it be all that's in your mind."

"Wait, you can do that? Only see one memory."

"Potter seriously?"

"Right Snape. Okay."

"As long as you stay focused on that memory and close off the rest of your mind, I can't see anything else."

"Merlin, maybe you should teach at Hogwarts."

"Thought about it but I think the Defense Against The Arts post is cursed." Harry laughs.

"Potions maybe."

"Too big shoes to fill. Anyway don't break eye contact." He nods and as we stare at one another I try to enter his mind but his thoughts are jumbled.

"Concentrate Potter, focus."

"Alright blimey."

"Focus." It takes a few minutes but we both gasp, our eyes snapping shut.