Desperation

"I don't know what happened. It wasn't my fault. Sometimes things just happen okay? I need to get out. In the open air.... Please Amelia don't do this!! Nooo!!!"  

Violet's last words.

They still haunt me to this day.

I still see her face, the tremble of her lip as she tried to call out.

I myself couldn't help.

Always too selfish.

Much to selfish.

They say I can change my ways. But I know I cant.

Don't you see mother! I'm nothing but a disaster. They were better off without me. Yet you still made me go there.

Make friends you said.

Be happy. You said.

I'm.

Leaving.

Now. You said.

And now.

I'm here. Waiting for him.

Raven. Edgy and mine. With blue eyes like lapis lazuli that see through your soul.

He saw my soul. Yet he stayed. I'm not sure why he would. He'll be here soon, and he'll be glad. Glad I did as he asked. The flowers on her grave were vibrant.

She would have liked them.