Troyler: high school troubles

Chapter 28: the note.

Tyler's POV:

Today went so slowly. I saw Troye again. It breaks me to see him because I know we've both hurt each other. Is this what love is? Just a constant heart break..

Because I think I'm in love with Troye sivan.

They boy who hurt me. The boy who made me so happy. The boy who made em fall in love in just a few days. The boy who I left.

Honestly.. It was probably the hardest thing I've ever done. I haven't spoken to him in a month. It seems longer yet not long at all. I want to speak to him. I want to say sorry. But how can I?

It's like he's my soulmate who I'm not meant to be with. It may seem messed up. I think everyone does have soul mate, it just doesn't always work out.

I dont know what it is but something seems different today. Something's different about Troye. He's acting strange. Has something happened? I want to ask him. I want to be there for him.

I want to be able to love him like he's mine.

But I can't.

I want to sort out everything with Troye because I was happiest when he was around even if that was only a few days. I need him in my life more than anyone.

The day carries on as normal.

Gym is last lesson and I have to stay behind to talk to the teacher for some reason. Something about me not putting in as much effort today. Honestly I don't know why I'm like this. I've not been paying attention to anything recently.

I get changed long after all the others. Then I go to my locker to put my kit away. I unlock it and then open it.
Once it's opened a note falls out.

It's sealed in a white envelope. My name is written on it.
Why has someone written me a note? That's not normal.

I tear it open and realise whose writing it is.

Troyes.

This is a note from Troye.

Dear tyler,

I am sorry for everything. I didn't mean for things to end the way they did. I wanted to help you. I guess me helping you didn't really help and you ended up hurting more.

I couldn't stand seeing you so hurt.

I know we all make mistakes. I know I got mad at you. I know I shouldn't of because you didn't mean it. And I forgive you now.

When you saw my cuts you gasped. I didn't know what to do. That's why I ran off. I didn't know how to react. I thought you found it disgusting, most people do. Then when called me asking for my help. I really tried to help ty, I really really did.

Promise you'll never try self harm again?

I'm so thankful for our friendship even if it only lasted a limited amount of days.

I hope the best for your future.

I'm sorry.

Please don't miss me..

Goodbye.

~Troye..

P.s I love you..

I know I might of not shown it. I wasn't ready to. I wanted to tell you. I wanted everything to be okay. I'm sorry it ended like this

Goodbye? Goodbye?! Is he going some where?

Suddenly it hit me.

This is a suicide note..

A/N

been alright at updating this story recently. Sorry it's short. I'm going out and wanted to write this before I left.

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