Troyler: high school troubles

Chapter 14: difference..

A/N I know these are annoying but if you haven't looked at the last a/n you need to. I know I know I hate them as well cuz they get in the way of the story but that one was important. So yea please check it out if you haven't.
Also still now wifi. I just brought my iPad to a cafe with me. So i dont know when I can next update. Sorry

Troyes POV:

1 unread message. It's from tyler I know it is, he probably just forgot about me. Who hasn't forgotten about me? All my friends from Australia haven't tried contacting me yet. Honestly ive give. Up on them. I'm not gone bother with people who don't bother about me. It gonna be a bullshit response that you'd use to anyone who you didn't care about. I know it is going to be. Should I even open the message? What's the point? There isn't any. He's a dick. Honestly this boy is pissing me off, like look at what he's made me do to myself. Well no. I did that to myself, he was just on my mind. I guess I should open the text to at least see what it says.
'I'm sorry Troye, like really sorry. What are you giving up on though? I don't understand..'

I can't tell him. I can't. I'll just send don't worry or something along those lines. I'm giving up on life.. Honestly everyday is a struggle. I wanted to be hidden this year, well every year.
I end up texting tyler back with just 'dw.' Hopefully he'll be able to tell I'm annoyed at him..

Actually no. I hope he realising what he's done to me already after knowing him for just a day. He's already tried to befriend me pretend we're gonna be great friends and then he ignores me. You can't just do that. Not just to me to anyone. Honestly I was stupid to think tyler wasn't just using me or whatever. He's a popular. Not a nobody like me. He won't like me. Ever. I really mean that. Honestly, I don't like him. I hate.
With all the thoughts in my head about tyler I end up falling asleep.

I wake up with sage bursting into my room and yelling at me to get up. Shit, my alarm didn't go off for whatever reason. I check my phone, first realising I didn't put it on charge so it only has 17% left. I also realise, nothing from tyler. Like absolutely nothing. That kinda hurts. I thought he would reply. Oh well I'll ignore him at school today. I'll just talk to.. Well no one. I'm use to that though, it's just a new school troye. It's just the same but a new place an different people. It's the same concept. If you're a popular you have everything easy, everyone loves you or is scared of you, all the teachers love you and you just get through high school so easily. If you're a loser like me then it's a very different story; you get bullied almost everyday, shoved into things, pushed over, the teachers hate you for being quite and always pick on you. High school isn't easy for people like this. This losers with no friends. So basically I'm talking about me. I've always struggled with school. It's so hard to cope with everything.
The last thing I realise is the time!! Shit shit shit!! I've got 10 minutes!

Luckily I had a shower last night so I don't have to have one today. I quickly put my phone on charge so I'll be able to use it at school for longer. Then I find a cute (well sage has told me many times it's cute) outfit. Black skinny jeans, a blue button up with a light jumper on top. It's looks better without the jumper but it's 'cold' so I have to leave it on..
Of course that's a lie; I don't want people seeing my cuts and scars. Maybe in the summer if I don't have any fresh cuts in my arm I'll be able to go without a jumper. I'll worry about that at the time and not now.
I then style my hair until it looks decent enough to go out. I grab my bag and start walking to school. Once I'm half way there I realise, I left my phone charging. This is going to be a long day.

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Once I arrive at school something seems.. Well different. It's quieter and there's not as many people around. That confuses me. As the day goes on I realise that none of the bullies have done anything.. That's really weird. I've seen them around loads. Something's missing though.
I just go to my lessons like normal, well as normal as it can be seeing as it's my second day here and I didn't go to class yesterday. Honestly this school is a little extreme, who keeps students in isolation on the first day? Nobody ever went into isolation at my old school. Oh well at least everyone is ignoring me or avoiding me. Probably cuz I'm the freak because I'm the new kid. Even Tyler's avoiding me,

Wait..

I haven't seen tyler all day.. Has something happened? He told me he never bunks school only lessons. Where is he? I mean there's a possibility he's sick but he seemed fine yesterday. It's the second day no one is off on the second day. Maybe that's why nothing's happened. Tyler's like in charge of everyone, no one knows what to do without him.
Everyone seems so..

Lost?

I reach into my pocket forgetting my phone is at home. Really, today I actually need it. I need to see if Tyler's okay. What if he's not. I'll wait till lunch and then I'll go home and grab my phone. Only one class left till lunch which is.. English.
English passes quickly and before I know it the bell is ringing and everyone is packing up. I really was daydreaming in that class. I start packing up when a girl approaches me. I recognise her straight away. It's the little ombré haired girl who hangs out with all the bullies. What's her name again? It's like zoe or something.

"Can I help you?" I ask as she's standing right in front of me.
"I just wanted to say sorry. This is all my fault. I said that we should bully you. I've just gotten so use to pretending to be someone that I'm not that I went too far. Which led to tyler hurting you. But troye, the thing is people don't pass out just because of getting punched.." I interrupt her before she gets any further.
"Look I don't have the time for this zoe" I say whole starting to walk away.
"I get them too troye. I have anxiety too" she calls out.

Well shit, one of the bullies knows I had a panics attack yesterday and that's why I passed out. Like no she can't do that. She can't act all friendly with me. She admitted that it was all her fault. Honestly she seemed like the nicest one there. Shes just acting to be nice to me. She's not actually sorry.
I start walking home to get my phone. I know I'm going to be late back but my phone is my baby. It's way more important than school. The walk is extremely long and boring. When I finally get to my house I get my keys out and unlock the door. I'm lucky that firstly sage and tyde go to a different school and secondly mom and dad are out at work. I don't know what I'd do if sage and tyde were always around me. They would find out a lot more about me. Also with mom and dad being at work I can go back home at lunch. I don't want to spend more time at school. I run upstairs to get my phone. I surprised myself by running, I never run. I guess my phone is that important to me.

Well Tyler's important to me.

I end up tripping over my own feet before I reach my room and walk right into a bookshelf. Real smart troye.. I'm always clumsy when I rush. I eventually make it to my door and open it. My room is extremely dark when I walk in. I go to open the curtains so I can actually see. I should of opened them this morning but I was too rushed to. I grab my phone from its charger and press the home screen button.

One new message.

Instantly I know who it's from. Who else would it be from? It's the small lilac haired boy who wasn't at school today. I suppose I should open the message and see what it says. He's probably just being really dickish and stuff. I'm curious what he has to say though. So I click on my messages and open the message.

From Tilly:
Hey troye boy.. I know you're mad at me. I said I'm sorry. I really am. The thing is, I need someone right now..

It was only sent half and hour ago. Why does he need someone? What's happened? Why isn't he just asking one of his popular friends?

What if something bad happened?

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Half an hour later I find myself in front of this house that tyler gave me the addresses to. His house. He act silly doesn't live that far away, I just don't have a car yet so I couldn't drive here. It was a tiring walk.. Well run.

Yes me Troye Sivan ran to Tyler's house.

I walk up to the steps leading to the door. Deep breath and then I press the doorbell. A few moments later a tyler opens the door.

Oh shit.

A/N
Opinions? It's kinda a filler chapter and I'm not sure if I like it. Hope everyone's having a good day anyways .
If you're not then I hope you're okay, just remember it will get better no matter what you think :)

I don't know how long this is because I can't do a word count because my internet is currently not working.
Obviously I've written this chapter in advance so you'll be reading this when I've gotten it back. Literally I'm posting this as soon as I get internet again.