IVF ; CHOI SAN

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With a dry tears Byul looking at the ceiling still feeling hurt and her mother in law word still lingering inside her mind. She sleep at the guest room doesn't want to San heard she sobbing she just can't control her emotions anymore.

Byul about to sleep when she suddenly remember she has not prepare San suit for work , The clock on the wall shows almost 4 o'clock in the morning she couldn't sleep so she decided to clean the house a bit and iron all San shirt and slack. Being in relationship with San almost 7 years and married for 2 turn 3years soon she knows that San hate wrinkles shirt.

She also iron her own black plain dress as an preparation to go to the hospital tomorrow. Byul didn't excited at all, after heard what San said to her and her mother in law she lose hope , tired , she the one who getting hurt . But still didn't get anything in return.

Byul make a way towards their share room there san sleep peacefully she walks getting closer to her husband sit at the edge of the bed "San-ah , forgive me i know im not the best wife for you but please baby don't leave me i need you by my side everything happen so fast i know i need to be strong but all of this was too much for me San i also want to be a mom but" she couldn't finish her word the tears wont let her. Byul return to the guest room and finally her eyelids feel heavy and she fall asleep that night tears stain at her cheeks.
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Byul hand busy arranging the plate and the mug for this morning breakfast she make it special for San , she want to make up with her husband. A few minutes laters she hear her husband footstep coming down from the stairs Byul look up and smile while running to her husband . San wearing whirt shirt with black vest and black coat was hanging at his arm .

"Baby lets eat breakfast together i made it special for you" San look at his wife emotionless hard to understand either he hate it or he like it "why baby?" She let go of San arm . "Im late" San grab his briefcase and get out from the door . The food he don't even touch it his wife effort was wasted .

Byul plop herself at the couch look at the food she cooked and hang her head down she feel useless, she failed to be a wife , to be a mother , to be the best in law , she also tired but she choose to keep silent.

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He walked inside his office and pull his chair plop himself and his tears fell "im sorry honey im really sorry" San also broken, he was selfish he didn't hate his wife but seeing his wife struggle alone make he feel guilty all the pressure he got make him turn selfish.

" plase dont hate me Byul , give me time to fix the situation again it's not easy for me to leave you but I had too you sacrifice so much, you are the one who keep getting hurt Byul" San cupped his face and cried alone San had made an decision.

He will divorce Byul soon so San choose to ignore her in hope that she will hate him and asking for divorce.
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"Hai Mrs.Choi how you feel today good?" The doctor took a seat opposite of Byul . Byul smile and nodded that what she always do act strong infront of people didn't let anyone to see the weak side of her.

"Im good doctor" Byul response but didn't look at the doctor in the eye anymore "doctor, this will be the last ivf for me" the look shocked "why Dear ? Are you giving up ? The doctor now hold Byul hand "Dear please wait for a little bit more i know this not easy for you also for you husband, tell me who doesn't want a child? Everyone does want a baby Byul every-"

The doctor word got cut "I don't know anymore a part of me still want to continue but a part of me tell me to stop i dont know" Byul wipe her tears and stand up smiling at the doctor back.

2 hours at the hospital and Byul done getting her ivf , she didn't hope anything she know the results for the past months its always negative even her own husband give up on her.
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Byul done doing an ivf and she didn't go to cafe today taking two day off she want to spend her time with San . San never go to her cafe now and also for the few months they don't sleep together anymore San always said that he need more space to make he feel comfortable.

byul never hate San even though San treated Byul very badly . Now byul in the mall and searching for something , she done and took a taxi to go back home .

Arrived at her house Byul put down all the things she bought she go to the kitchen store the items she bought in the boxes and cabinets then she went to the bathroom to prepare bath water for her husband Byul put some salt specially designed to relieve stress she knows for a past few days San is always stressed.

Wait and wait 1 hours later the door opened there San standing his shirt already untuck , take off the shoes he kick the shoes , Byul just look at her husband didn't utter a single word. San walk towards the couch and throw his briefcase plop beside his wife and close his eye.

Byul heart ache seeing her husband always stress originally San always hug her , smile and San also never get angry over small thing. Byul noticed San behavior became more rough and cold.

"Baby" she hold san hand "go shower and come down let's eat We haven't had dinner together for almost a week" San was quite ignoring his wife wasn't easy for San admit he miss her . Miss everything about her they dont cuddle anymore San don't sleep with his wife for almost one week.

San stand up dont even look at his wife take off his coat and throw it at the table near the stairs while walking San unbutton one by one his shirt and once arrived at his room he take off everything hops in the shower and noticed the bathtub is already ready for him , the scent penetrate in his nose inhale deeply already make San relax. He relax in the bathtub almost sleep there then he rememberer than his wife ask to have dinner together.

Tbc<3