Jily One Shots

You're my favourite

There was something different about that night.

At first she doesn't understand and if she's being completely honest, she doesn't understand until the last minutes of her life.

She could feel that she wasn't safe, it was hard to explain or understand. She knew that she was safe, surely she was. She could trust Peter, she trusted that he would never betray them, she trusted her friend.

Lily knew that it wasn't logical that she felt unsafe, there was no danger there, she would be fine. That's what she kept telling herself anyways.

James sensed that she was feeling uneasy and he quickly came to question it.

"What's wrong love?" He asked his wife, face expressing pure worry, whilst giving her a sweet kiss to her forehead.

"I'm not sure, it just seems like something isn't right. I can't quite put my finger on it, yet it seems like it should be obvious, but I'm sure that it's just paranoia."

"Yes, there has been a lot of that lately I must say, there has been little relaxation even though we know that we are safe as of right now. But I'm so worried for Padfoot, Moony and Wormtail," Lily looked at him in understanding.

"I wish that they could be as safe as we are at the moment, I will always worry about them, I may not have been friends with them for as long as you have been but that doesn't lesson the affection that I feel for them."

"Yes, but I have a rising suspicion that Sirius likes you better than me," James said with a pout, trying to cheer up his wife.

"Why would you say that?" Lily questioned with a smirk.

"Well ever since first year he would always say exactly that. Also the fact that if I ever did anything to hurt you, he would be taking your side, after all, you did teach him to braid, I'm afraid that I could never give him that extensive knowledge."

"I am a great teacher aren't I?" James nodded in agreement, not wanting to upset his redhead, who could easily injure him if she so wanted. "I suppose it goes both ways, he's my favourite too."

James stood, used to the way that Lily would always tease him about not being her favourite, though it did always slightly wound him, though never so much as he claimed in his overdramatic speeches that he constantly said to keep the light situation. They always tried to keep the mood as light as possible, trying to keep the morbid news of deaths of friends away from their minds for as long as possible until they had to face the music. They couldn't change the fact that there was a raging war going on outside, but they could try to focus on being happy for the time being, as there was no use stressing when they couldn't do anything in the position that they were in. They would cross the bridges of grief and loss when they came to them, concerned, but not killing themselves with the unimaginable thoughts that would often come back to haunt them.

"You always manage to find a way to wound me, don't you Evans?" James sighed dramatically, falling into a lying position on the lounge.

"And you always forget that I changed my last name," Lily said, smiling and sitting beside to James on the lounge.

"Oh I could never forget about that, I just like to bring back the old nickname from time to time."

"I suppose old habits die hard," Lily said thoughtfully.

"Indeed," James said while pulling Lily in for a kiss, that quickly was deepened, neither knew by who, it was a team effort. But the opening of the front door brought them to freeze up.

"I'll go see what that is," James said getting up from the lounge, leaving his wand and going to the front door.

Lily watched as her husband go off defenceless, probably thinking that is was just the wind picking up. But then it occurred to her, this was the feeling that she was getting earlier, it all made sense to her now, she understood and wanted to race up to stop James but instead was interrupted by his voice.

"Lily, take Harry and go! It's him!" Lily knew what that meant, but she wished that she didn't, "I'll hold him off!"

Immediately after that was said Lily let her panic take over her and picked up Harry from his highchair, where he was sitting quietly, just in awe of his parents. She ran quickly up to Harry's nursery and put him into his cot, where she whispered her final words to him.

She knew that James was dead, she knew that she should have told him to take his wand with him and Lily wished that she had hers. She knew that he was dead from the loud thump that she heard and was certain that it could have only occurred from James' dead, cold body that was warm and lively only just a few moments ago. Everything that happened in the next few minutes all seemed like a blur to her, but she knew that she tried to reason with Voldemort. She knew that she tried to save her son, that was the one thing that she was sure of, she knew that she wasn't going to live, there was no chance of it, she would not take his offers that she could live instead of Harry. Lily would not live if she couldn't have her boys, she wouldn't be able to go on if she had to endure living without them, they were the only people in her life that brought her pure joy and no offer of life was going to change that, she would rather be dead than go on living without that feeling.

In the end, she didn't blame Peter, but she couldn't help but feel the betrayal as life left her soul. She was only sure of one thing and that was that she would be reunited with James. She could feel all the worry that was in her dissipate at the thought, she was coming home to James. They hadn't even been separated for that long, but that time seemed like agony.

Her last thought was:

I take that back, you are my favourite James.

Authors note

Ok I hope you liked that one! I was so close to tears while writing this, but I feel like since it is October I had to do something. I would never forgive myself if I didn't add to the month-long depression that we all get at this time of year. Doing this on the 31st would have made me even sadder so I just decided to do this now while I had the inspiration and the time so that's what I did. But anyways I've ranted enough for now so yeah I hope you are all well and I dealing with right now well, because it is hurting my soul but I'll be fine. But I'll go now, promise, might update again soon, I hope so anyway. Bye xxx.