If this is what it takes (Bucky Barnes x reader)

Chapter 4

"I am waiting." I told him. "I won't tell them unless you wanna help him destroy earth or something else." I added. There was silence for a long time. "Just promise me that you're not up to something terrible, okay?" I asked with a pleading expression. "I promise. There is nothing to be feared of." I sighed. "Well, I should go. Nat is waiting and I don't want her to worry." I turned around and was about to leave when I turned back. "Loki, we may be able to sometime speak alone." I said and then left.

Loki POV:
I watched her walk away. Sebastian already told me about her and she seemed stronger than I expected. "There is something you didn't tell me about her and I wanna know what? And why you didn't tell me." I turned to face my old friend. "What could there be? I didn't expect all that either, maybe after what happened she don't want to seem weak in any way. Why should I hide anything from you? You are my closest friend even though no one knows." He told me. "But why do you care about that, I mean that you don't know her so well, don't know everything about her?" He asked. I hid it and rolled my eyes. "I just wanna know my enemies." I explained hoping that he believed me.
"And why should I believe the God of Lies?" He joked. "Ouch." I put a hand above my heart. "Why should I lie to a friend, my only friend?" I saw it in his expression that I convinced him, for now. There was something interesting in her. I saw the bruises all over her body and I couldn't figure out why but I felt sorry for her. "I probably should go, before Nat get suspicious." Sebastian told me and I just nodded. I was relieved that he was gone now I could clear my mind. Sometimes it was hard to lie and hide the truth, especially when it was someone like Sebastian, a close friend.

Bucky POV:
The mission was as fast over as it started. We got the information we needed fast and I was happy about it. I wanted to get back to the tower, to Phoebe. After what happened, I felt responsible for her. If anything happened to her, I would blame me because I couldn't protect her.
"Buck? Are you okay?" Steve asked me as we were on our way back. "Yea. Why should I be?" I answered and tried to think of something else. "You seemed so... I don't know... stuck in your mind. Is there something you wanna tell me?" I tried to look confused. "No. I am just tired. The mission was hard that's all." I lied.
The ride home wasn't too long and I was behind everyone like always to not draw any attention onto me. "Thus mission was great. The Hydra agents almost got out of the way by themselves." Stark said as we entered the tower. "That was much faster than I expected it to be." Steve admitted. "This was easy." Peter said. "Yes, kid. Because we did all the work." Stark replied. That made me chuckled. "If you're saying, knocking out half if the Hydra agents is nothing then yes, you did all the work." Peter responded and I could see that Stark rolled his eyes. "That's getting annoying." Steve said and I agreed.
"Hi guys. How was the mission? You're early." Nat asked as we entered the living room. "Great. Except of them arguing who was the best when it's obvious." Thor joked. "You would've done nothing without your hammer." Stark said. "Yea, and what about you in your suit? Everyone can use it but I am the only one who's worthy Mjölnir." Thor centered and that made Stark shut up. We all tried to lift his hammer but no one was able to.
I looked around to find Y/n but couldn't see her anywhere. Was she okay? "By the way, where us that girl, Phoebe?" Stark asked and I was thankful that he did it. "She went home. I offered her to stay here for a while and first she didn't want to but I convinced her. Now she's getting some stuff. I know that she'll feel saver here even though she won't admit it Oh, and Sebastian went with her." Nat replied. I was happy that she would stay for a while.

Y/n POV:
I said next to Sebastian in the car. "You're okay?" He asked me. "After everything? I don't know. But I'll get over it." I assured him. "I heard you screaming last night. I wanted to look after you but Bucky was faster. I saw him entering his room and let him look after you. What happened?" I looked out of the window to avoid eye contact. "It was just a nightmare. I am sorry that I woke you." I tried as good as I could to hold my voice strong. "What happened?" I sighed. "Nothing important. It was just a little too much for me." I didn't want to think again of this horrible dream. "You can always talk with me." He offered but I shook my head. "Thank you but I am good." I tried to not sound too harsh.
We stopped in front of my house. I stepped inside and my eyes started tearing up when I saw what that bastard had done. I looked around and could see Sebastian looking at me. I immediately wiped the tears away. "Just give me a second. I'll be right back." I said and went into the bedroom.
My whole body started shaking when the memories came back into the front of my head. How he didn't stop punching and kicking me. How he told me to die and what a terrible person I was. I sank onto my knees and cried quietly. I tried to calm myself down. I took deep breath and was after a while able to stand up again. I took the things that were most important to me and some clothes. I made sure that no one could see that I had cried and left the room, with my past in it. I would get stronger. Not only my strength but also my mind and personality. I wouldn't let that happen again.

Bucky POV:
I could convince the others to give Y/n the room opposite of mine. They wouldn't know anything. I told them that I got along with her and understood her and that it would be good because Sebastian was in the room next to mine and I guess she trusted him the most.
I now sat in my room waiting for them to come back, hoping that Y/n was okay. I knew I could trust Seb. He was a great Avengers and could protect others. It got late and I was about to look after them when I heard a knock on my door. I walked over and opened it. "Can I come in?" Y/n asked. Her voice was only a whisper and I could tell that she had problems to stand. "Sure. What happened?" I answered and we walked over to my bed and sat down.
"I just need someone. I don't wanna be alone right now." She said and took a deep breath. "Has it something to do with that you were back in your house?" I asked. "She nodded and tears started rolling down her face. I embraced her. It wasn't my intention to push her. I just wanted to help. "It's okay. I am here. You're save." I said to calm her down. "I just- I d- don't want to be w- weak." She sobbed. "I didn't even try to fight back. I let him hurt me." She added. "It is not your fault. You were shocked." It hurt me to see her like this. I would find that bastard and do the same to him what he did to her. He broke her, so I would break him.
After a while she stood up and walked over to the door. It was obvious that she didn't want to go, be alone in her room. "You don't have to go." The words left my mouth without thinking and she turned around. "I can only guess how you feel right now and you don't have to be alone. You are not alone. You are part of this team now." I told her. Y/n nodded. "I just put on my pajama." She mumbled and left. After some minutes she came back in only a t-shirt. I stared at her until she spoke up. "Thank you. I really appreciate it that you help me." I stood up and hugged her. "There is nothing you have to thank me." Then we went to bed.

A/n: Hi! Sorry that it took me a little longer too update. I had so much to do and just forgot. Something really good happened and now I am waiting for more information... Hope it turns out good! And now have fun! And I hope you had a good day. <333