The Secret She Didn't Know

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Life. It's something mysterious, one moment you will be laughing wholeheartedly and next thing you know everyone you love leaves you, one by one.

If anyone said me everything will be alright...I would make sure he never looks at me, cause it won't. I have been that naive girl for almost 5 years... 5 years...it had been 5 years since they dies and he disappeared lost! gone! I shook my head from the disturbing thoughts, today is going to be a new beginning, no more sorrows and no more wailing. It's time to get ready for Seoul national university, THAT'S RIGHT, UNVERSITY. 

damn yoonji you go, girl!  I thought looking at the books in my hand, after all those restrictions in the past years I got entered my dream university. "eomaa, appa, Oppa today's the first day! wish me luck!"

I smiled at our family photo before walking towards the door, TODAY IS GOING TO BE GREAT! I JUST KNOW IT,

today is NOT a great day..."WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?!" I screamed at the bus driver who kees fighting with a biker for who knows what and keeps the traffic for more than 20 MINUTES,

shit yoonji you can't, I repeat CAN'T get late to lectures

Dear Lord help me... I bit my lips in frustration before murmuring a curse, to hell with law! I rode my bike as fast as I can't bother to stop at the red lights, And just like that I arrived at my new university,

ok maybe dressing up in an emo hoodie and riding a bike to college isn't the best way to make an impression on the first day of university. But hey! for my defence I wanted to be real as a start. The university is just....wow! that's it. it's huge!! you can see there are about 3 major buildings and other smaller ones, it even has its picnic place! how awesome is that? I quickly excused my way towards my first class, 

let's see.....oh wow English literature...yay! I thought sarcastically, of course, I majored in art and music but here we should learn another bi sort of lesson too. considering history, maths and science as the other options, I think English literature is pretty decent,

 I looked around to see several people sitting around,  some were chatting with their friends while some were revising what they had studied? the fuck isn't it the first day?

Oh wow, talk about groups, it's pretty clear there already is a division in the students here, jocks, popular chicks, nerds, and the loners, Jesus Christ! whatever I shrugged and sat in a side of the halls,  waiting for class to start. A few minutes past and the rest of the freshmen seem to come in, I stared at a bird outside who was chirping happily, a small smile took over my lips at the scenery. But abruptly it gave a quiet shriek and fell, no one else seems to hear it or even if they did, they ignored, but my eyes widen as I tried to search where the bird fell, keyword tried, it was as if it wasn't there...as if it vanished... painful memories started flashing through my brain once more, 

*flashback*

"yoongi? Oppa? Oppa! I need you" the 15-year-old yoonji cried crawling down to the floor, hoping her brother would come and comfort her, but alas no one came...she waited for 5 years

And she still waits silently, yoonji held a sob back remembering her past, NO she was determined to not oblige to her past anymore.

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