Fifty shades of Ereri (Levi X Eren)

Chapter 16

When I wake up next morning, Eren's not there anymore, but I hear music from the kitchen, what means he's making breakfeast. He does that quite often recently and to be honest, I love it, when he cooks. I groan tired, bevore I sit up and look around in the room. When I think about it, I've never slept in here. This is the first time. I sight, bevore I climb out of the bed and walk into the kitchen, where I find Eren standing at the counter and shaking his ass to E.T by Katy Perry. With a grin Iean against the doorframe and watch him having his fun. There he suddenly starts to sing with his entire heart, while using the cooking spoon as microphone. I just find it very funny, that he's going up like that to especially THAT song. Not a good idea, if you're with me, Eren. Not a good idea. He's so into it, that he doesn't even notice me. He's so adorable. No! Yes! No! Yes, he is fucking adorable and I wanna cuddle and the shit out of him! No I don't! Wait, am I seriously having an argiument with myself? Shit, I'm so fucking pathetic. There the song stops and Eren looks at the pan infront of him again. There I completely loose control over my body, walk towards him and wrap my arms around him. ,,Sir?", he asks confused, but I shut him up with a soft kiss. There I suddenly realise what I'm doing and instantly step a few steps back. ,,What the hell was that?", Eren asks confused and I bite my teeth together. ,,Nothing. Just forget this ever happend.", I answer and take a deep breath. Silence. ,,Good morning, by the way.", the brunette says after a while and I look at him again. ,,Morning.", I reply after I came down a little. ,,Ehm...I made omlette, so if you're hungry..." I nood. ,,I'd like to have some, thanks.", I say and sit down on one of the chairs. I watch Eren placing a plate infront of me and sits next to me. ,,Ehm...Is it okay, if I go back today already?" My eyes widen. ,,Why would you do that?", I ask with my mouth full and the brunette sights. ,,I'm planning to visit my parents. I haven't been there in a while and I really miss them." I think for a second. The thought of Eren being so faar away gives me a weard feeling, but I decide to just let him. ,,Will you be back next weekend?", I ask and his expression lightens up a little bit. ,,Yeah, I'm just staying until wednesday.", he answers and I nood.  Good. So I technichly won't notice it, but still. From here to Trost it's three fucking hours. Ugh, I should really stop worrying so much. He's an outgrown adult and is able take care of himself, right? Shit, but I'm still afraid something might happen to him. ,,Just take care of yourself and it's alright.", I say and fill my mouth with egg again. ,,I will, I promise.", Eren replies and smiles. I nood again and sight. We sit like that for a while, when I suddenly hear a song in the radio that catches my attention. It's Perfect from Ed Sheeran. ,,I love that song."; I say, without taking care of what I'm saying. There Eren stands up from the chair and reaches me his hand. ,,Wanna dance?", he asks and I role my eyes. ,,This is silly.", I say and look away. ,,Come on, just this one time. Please!". the brunette replies and I sight. I'm gonna regret this so fucking bad. ,,Fine." I grab Eren's hand and stand infront of him. Carefully he places his hand on my hips and I place mine on his shoulder. There I realise I have littelary no clue how to dance. ,,I can't dance."; I whisper and look away embarrest. ,,No problem, I can't eather.", Eren replies and I sight. After a few more seconds we slowly start to move to the rythem of the song. Honestly it's more cumpsy bumping through the room than dancing, but we don't care. In all our clumpsyness, I have the biggest fun ever. Sometimes Eren spins me around, sometimes I spin him around and we nearly fall to the ground like three times. We don't even stop when the song ends and just keep on going too our own rythem. I don't know how long we do this, until we both don't have enough energy anymore and just stand in eachother's arms. There Eren lifts my chin up so I directly look into his ociancolored eyes. No, this situation is absolutely terrible. I have the bad feeling in my stomac that he's gonna say the evil three words, but I won't let it come this faar. With a sight I look away and step away. ,,Please don't ruun away from me again.", Eren begs and grabs my wrist, but I rip it free and bite my teeth together. ,,Leave it. I can't be, what you want me to be.", I reply and look at the wall. ,,For god's sake, don't you get that I love you?" Fuck. ,,N-No, you..can't. You can't love me." No one can. How could anyone ever fall inlove with me? That's just impossible. Though I don't see him, I can sense he's staring at me with pure confusion and pain. ,,But I do." Shit, this is bad. This is really bad. No, this is the biggest disaster, that ever happend to a person. ,,But I don't.", I say and these words leave a bad taste in my mouth. Eren just keeps staring at me. I have to tell him the bitter truth now, or else he'll think, he's got a chance. ,,I don't love anybody. I'm not able too. I told you from the beginning, that I'm not good for you, but you just didn't listen and now look where this got you! This with us wouldn't work, Eren! Get it! You'll find someone better than me!" ,,But I don't wanna be with anyone else!" ,,Eren! In the end I'm just gonna throw you away like I did with everyone else! You mean nothing to me, so stop telling yourself anything else!" There I realise I started yelling. I turn around to Eren again and see his eyes are tearsfilled. Without saying anything else, he runs out of the room and I hear his foodsteps on the stairs, following from breathy sobs. I realise what just happend. Oh no. What have I done? 

The cold air hits my skin and I realise it's raining. My tears run down my face and I barely can breath. What did just happen? Five minutes ago everything was fine and now...I lean my head back and let the rain drip down my face. Maybe I can hide my tears like that. Why am I even surprised? I already kinda knew, I don't mean anything to him, but hearing it coming out of his mouth hurted unbelieveble much. I probably should go back home now. Slowly I start to walk along the sidewalk when I suddenly hear  steps behind me. ,,Eren!", Levi shouts and I bite my teeth together. A few seconds later he grabs my wrist and forces me to turn around to him. ,,Leave me alone.", I say and try to rip myself free, but he's stronger than me. ,,Why are you trying to change me?", it shoots out of me. Silence. The grib around my wrist loosens a little. ,,It's you that's changing me." My eyes widen. What? Now I take my chance and run away.