Emotions

Gas Lighting

Sometimes you never expect the little things to have a huge impact on your emotions, your behavior, and ultimately your entire outlook on life.

It can range from ignoring you, or withholding affection when they disagree, to verbal or even physical abuse.

Gas lighting is manipulative behavior.

It is so lethal as you may not even know when it is happening to you personally.

It manifests itself in your day to day life and alters your attitude towards certain things.

Imagine having a favorite ice cream flavour. The person in question may act sad that you chose that flavor and not allow him to "recommend" his or her favorite to you, that person may even yell at you or not speak to you for choosing the flavor that you did.

According to natural human behavior, the want to gain approval and praise from this person that you care about will lead you to no longer buy your favorite flavor of ice cream as to not displease the other person.

You may not even realize that you have stopped eating that flavour until years have passed.

Hence the reason that gas lighting is lethal, and the most emotionally draining type of abuse.

I myself only learnt how much damage this has had on myself and how much it has changed the way I think and act and recently.

For years I have been gas lighted and it has damaged me to the extent as to where I now question every single person around me whether it be my own mother or a complete stranger.

Sometimes internal damage is just as bad as external.

Justifying certain behaviors by saying that it could potentially be worse is what allows this type of behavior to continue to the point of irreversible damage.

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A/n

Thank you so much for clicking into my book.

As you may have realised, this is not a story line with a plot, but rather I will be talking about different emotions and harmful or positive actions that I experience on a day to day basis.

This book is not here to discredit how various actions may make you feel as an individual, but rather is based on my own experiences.

Please do feel free to message me constructive criticism or ideas.

Please also feel free to talk to me if you are going through something and would like someone to talk to without feeling judged. While I am not a qualified therapist, I know how it feels to not have anyone in your corner. Hence my messages always open.

I am not sure as to how frequently I will be uploading chapters but I will try to write as much as possible.

Stay tuned.

Until next time,
Savannah Paige.